No words today for some reason... looked through my photos.. but couldn't pick anything... till after i had finished writing then added this bit!

my Mom is being moved this morning all being well, to the care home she wanted, our prayers answered... i had a call in the morning yesterday and at the hospital in the afternoon, lots of calls and form filling in... and i should be getting a call soon saying she is on her way and i will get there post haste! to be there to welcome her in...



i will be spending lots of time there, instead of hours of travelling i can be there with her instead as much nearer home...

so amigos i think this may be last you hear from me for a while... probably knowing me just a day or two....


TTFN amigos, take care, will be thinking of you all.....
Marian

where has this week gone? been waiting all week for news of where Mom can go, and at last friday we heard its the care home she wanted to go to in Berko, the one where my step dad was...

her health visitor offered Mom two places, one in Watford with the possibility of moving on to the one she really wanted... we kept on at her to only go to the Berkhamsted one, which was best, she may have not been able to move again once in the other one apparently!

the wait may be 12 days, but then that was friday so its 10 days already isnt it!

as for me, i got a lift to the hospital on wednesday from Aylesbury, but had had to pick up package for Mom from post office in Berko, leaving at 815am, walking into town to then get the bus from there to Aylesbury... Moms been craving for Newbury Fruits! i hunted them down, along with a couple of her other favourites, crystallised ginger and turkish delight! so box was quite heavy, especially with a packet of chilli chocolate thrown in for me too!

but the list to Watford was greatly appreicated! and tomorrow monday a mate of mine has a doctors appointment in the same hospital, so i am going over early to hers by bus, then we will go together, and she is dropping me off back here afterwards...

yesterday i took along a friend of Moms, its too far for her to walk so we get a cab, as once before the guy on the way there charged 5£, he said minimum fare, yet the drive back due to the one way system is further was only 3.60£!!! you know i still feel that if the meter says a lower figure to what i am being charged... i am being robbed!!!

i am so tired, head achey, body weary and mentally tired its all i do to... i dont know what...

TTFN
Marian

Ground hog day...

ground hog day indeed... did the quiet ground hog stick his fizzy whiskery little nose out of his hidey hole and see a spring coming? or do we have another month of winter? the latter i think...

or am talking *Ground hog day*.. the movie! yes more like it... yesterday when i arrived at the hospital we thought we knew where she was going... but seems not, Mom came up with Gossoms end, but thats a rehab place now, and they dont know where she got that idea from!

but.. the discharge nurse said hopefully tomorrow, tuesday we shall move your Mom to Hemel Hempstead hospital and then from there to a care home... i phoned this morning to find out Moms whereabouts! still in Watford! and theyre not sure weather to move her to Hemel now, or just keep her there and send her to a care home directly! less moving about, less hassle, which is true... but, Mom wants outta there now!

i said what about the St Francis hospice local to us? and they said well thats only for seriously ill people...?????????? hello!!!!!!!!!!!!! Moms prognosis is serious???

so waiting for news on action here or there, or who knows where.... talk about messing with our minds....

......... ok, this morning i met up with friend in Aylesbury for coffee and chat, was good morning, apart from a call to hospital to find out where i was getting off the bus... anyway, good old chin wag... and on the bus 10 to 12.00pm takes 1 hr 40 minutes mas o menos, i noticed something over these weeks on the buses, when i was a kid we always sat up on the top deck or at the back of the bus... now i am still sitting at the back of the bus and the kids come on... look longingly towards the back seats and find them full of oldies!!!! uhuuum, well and people my age!!!

the driver this morning was in such a hurry he sailed right past bus stops filled with people who were out of the way of the rain... and then a quick glimpse of their startled faces as we passed them by!

ok, time to relax, ha! ok coffee then instead had my dinner, called the Iain Rennie nurses to see if they can help, visited Aunt Linda and another neighbour... keeping everyone up to date...

i got my valentines card today from Franco... made me cry, its so wonderful... a little box inside too with bookmark with a beautiful poem i can carry with me, and cry on the move!

oh this morning.. another call, it was still dark in the room and so when the phone rang at 6:50am i thought it was the middle of the night, and was just as upset as last weeks call earlier... number withheld... i think a call to BT may be happening, but i will leave it for now, if another one happens i will...

TTFN
Marian

not sure the time is going, but its going fast... Mom is still in hospital, still trying to break out! she just wants out now, and i mean now! which after four weeks is understandable...

after all the meetings and the many people we have talked to over the past week Mom and i have now decided 100% that she needs 24hr medical needs, and only have nurses 4 times a day would do her no good at all, so the bed and other 8 items were all cancelled, the discharge nurse did mention that it had taken 3 hours of paper work to sort out, but never mind! well ok, never mind then eh!!!

Mom is moving to a place much nearer here, so all her family and friends can visit easily, so much better, at one point an option was miles and miles away! but it still has to be confirmed so fingers crossed...

this morning i seem to be having a bit of a panic attack which is why i am writing with such haste and .... panic! after something Mom said yesterday i suddenly thought i will have to vacate here soon! and the thought of going through all Moms belongings has thrown me into a state of shock!

there are things Mom wants me to have, all the old family books and china, this and that... then there is all the furniture, she wants that to go somewhere else, i need boxes! i need paper to wrap! i need help!!!! mentally i think more than phisical! then... what on earth am i going to do with all the things i am keeping, there are two small tables, the couple of boxes off things and all of my Dads paintings!

ok thought writing this down would help, but now just seem to be shaking and a pain is starting to reach up into my head from my neck, i think i must be cutting of my blood supply to my brain!!!!

Moms birthday cards are still there too, on the floor... i suppose i will have to start with them, now i am sad as well as shaky... oh heck all Moms clothes too? i must ask today what she will need where she is going... ok panic is set in now and the tesco man is about to deliver the groceries... he may meet a mad woman if i dont sort my self out soon....

where do i start? what shall i do? yes boxes and paper.... boxes and paper, boxes and paper....

TTFN
Marian