One week to go and counting down days now.. 

Having a latte in Smithy's.. and new decor.. 

And below.. a wonderful book too.. this cafe has been going since 1936... I read quite a bit of the book, wonderful story about the two women who began this cafe.. 

I love the words beneath the art window.. and so very true..

A moment lasts all of a second

But the memory lives on forever..

Its another beautiful day, after last night's thunder and lightning storm.. one crash right above the house!

It's windy though and I've come back to read rest and quite possibly get some sleep!

M.

This is the wonderful cake from Smithy's Acocks Green, on the Yardley road..

Not sure if this link will work..

Was thinking the other day, I always GoogleMap all the food I have out, I review and promote places I've enjoyed good food.. but don't usually say to much on my Blog, then I see Bloggers who do! And I thought, so should I!

I am so tired, beyond tired actually and seem to have lost weight which is a first at work. A week tomorrow I'm off, and then home soon after.. 

Last few nights I've heard fireworks, they seem a long way away they sound, or it could be my nurons firing!

I feel a poem should be next, but just too exhausted.

Just heard this on a series I'm watching, Wet Hot American Summer, 10 years on.. 

Sorry if song sounds sad.. just tired..  and Eddie Brickell and the New Bohemians.. says it all!

M.

So another day.. another dime..

Can you see what's falling around here.. it's like snow the pollen from the trees..

Trying to figure out why I have such bad backache.. it could actually be sat here in this park.. no benches here have backs, they want people to sit, but not for long! And making my back muscles work .. mmm okay yes I suppose it's okay then!! 

Sunday today, getting through, unexpectedly, maybe I'm stronger than I give myself credit for, but feel more that I am doing harm to my mind, mentally this is so bad, the placement I mean..

Then quote below pops up in my inbox.. so here I am trying and trying and keeping on going. For now.

Oh and it was my birthday yesterday, probably stands high above other worse birthdays, I had two cards, one from clients and one from another support worker, who facilitates my breaks.. and I bought two cakes the day before, a carrot cake and a chocolate cake, maybe told you this already, I don't know.. the carrot one seemed most popular so I had chocolate cake yesterday after dinner, small slice eaten standing up and quickly..

Thankfully lots of messages and calls on my break..

And a song sent via Facebook, which actually summed my day up perfectly..let me get the link now..

C'est la vie by Robbie Nevil

They have my hair, or so I have theirs? And the words! Perfect!

M.

Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.

Ugh! So tired, slept through much of my break, except an hour in the park reading, or trying to.. with a mind too tired and chasing elusive thoughts.. until I remembered I needed to go to the store to buy birthday cake!!

So back to work, grabbed purse and back out and then walked into town.. then came back and slept.

Up three times in night, and then had two hours of not being able to get back to sleep at all!

Too hot, no air in here, and karioki nearby until gone 1am!! 

Back to work in a few minutes now, and eyes want to close!

M.

On placement now.. that's all I can say, for so many reasons...

Still, yesterday I found a green park, not massive, but lots of tracks and a river and the canal..

Three weeks today and I'm off.. stronger and more capable than I thought I was..  Although not out of the woods yet.. 

Things are never what they seem, and wrong information can be very misleading.. 

And that's enough of the metaphors!

These photographs all taken in the park by the way.. of course.. My first day I walked to town and the supermarket.. That won't happen again will have to buy only from the local 'expensive' store..

I even got followed by a police car yesterday!? I was maybe walking too slowly in a nice street.. swinging my bottle of 7Up.. 

And gazing around.. I was tired and enjoy the air without rushing about.. 

Before I go.. again,. please read in web page now and again please.. 

Thank you..

Promoting the hell on WhatsApp.. and here now!

M.

Random cattle!

Just a quick Blog post here today..

I've been doing a lot of promotion work for my book on my stepdad and a new online store I'm trying to get up and running.. to help my income, if I can.. 

Thinking about my Blog, I think most people 'read' me on their mobile/cell phones.. and miss out on all the extra stuff one sees on the web version.. you can see the link to it at the bottom of this page..

Thank you kindly!

M.

 "No one wants you to be yourself. They want you to be the version of yourself that they like. "

Read this today.. 

Is this how it is? 

I think somehow that we are different versions of ourselves, with different people.. we mold, we change maybe to be more flexible, we have to be flexible.. If someone is all about only how they are, their likes, their feelings, their wants and needs... It's not a relationship.. be it friendship, loved ones.. any relationship.

Maybe the person who wrote this wants to only to be exactly who they are.. and someone wants them to give a little, share a difference, share a life.. 

And why does it matter.. I'll get off my soap box.. just random thoughts from my very random mind!

But it is scary to wonder how many versions there are of all of us thinking about this... Need to find self.. our own true selves and be happy with ourselves.. harder said than done..

M.

Eighth day, so second PCR test sent off to be tested then freedom on Sunday..

Not good day today and shouldn't be writing on here... 

Had a migraine today, still have.. so maybe finish this tomorrow..

And now tomorrow it is!

I am better, goodness knows what caused that yesterday.. I'm not a food triggered migraine sufferer.. yes maybe hormones, when I had them! But as my beautiful amazing aunt in Queens pointed out to me when I but in my 30's.. when the hormones have gone so will the migraines! She was correct, of course!

So who knows.. 

But better now! Still housebound, had a call yesterday during my distress from . gov, to enquire my whereabouts etc etc.. 

Now awaiting result and freedom tomorrow..or rather Monday morning, been advised against running screaming down the street at midnight plus one minute in an act of freedom!

I dreampt this morning I was a DJ.. and my Pippa was with me.. amongst my other always weird and very entertaining night-time dream life.

I have a song here to listen to.. 

Rag n Bone Man - Alone 

M.