Sat here in departures.. 

I wrote two paragraphs of this on Facebook, but way too much information! For having a meltdown!

I got in a strop at baggage drop off first .. when a whole bunch of people thought they'd skip a line we'd all been waiting in for an hour (okay ten minutes!), still!! And yes, very embarrassing I said my thoughts out loud! 

Best bit was skipping through Fast Track! Oh yes!! The very best, although I did have to point out two empty bays for security to the family in front of me who were just standing and staring.. and then once those plastic trays are through I couldn't even get to mine as everyone emptying out theirs on the line...

I pointed out the bays for that very purpose!

I am so bad! 

This is what comes of flying twenty or more times a year for six years!

Patience? Who? No not me!

And that's better.. vented.. 

For your reading pleasure! 

Bet you're all glad you're not sat next to me, or my 'phone a friend.'

M.

Last day in England, another gloriously warm day, been so lucky! 

Didn't get to see the Borealis, but that's okay, I'm a meteor girl... 

More about the stars for me.. 

Some more photographs from Whipsnade Zoo on Friday, a pair of flamingos that became even closer just after this! 

Not an X-rated Blog so, keeping it clean! 

Then the lions.. two females laying down and him, tearing up a piece of meat, appeared to be legs and hoofs of another creature.. but didn't want to look to closely or think too deeply about that! 

Above mom and baby, white Rhinos .. 

And above gorgeous parrots... There were four red and yellows, and I think four amazing blue color Parrots.. stunning!

These followed the eagles, kookaburras three of them.. and a couple of others.. I have forgotten what which! 

Yesterday we went to Stevenage, and M&S at a retail park and then home... Lots of walking and scooting, by babe, not me, this time!

And today we've been to the bakery and home, sat out in the garden enjoying the beautiful day..s

Just reread, always errors.. spell check is a wonderous thing! 

Apparently called spelling because words were for actual spells! Probably more for story's or telling stories!

We should be careful what we say, our words are very powerful and most times we don't consider their strength.. 

M.

Colors are brighter when the mind is open.

Adriana Alarcon - Author

Whipsnade Zoo

Visited Whipsnade Zoo today, after nursery.. Was a wonderful visit as always, it was 2011 the last time I was there... 

And oddly May 11 2008 came up in my memories this morning! 

From a quick look I thought I'd caught the steam from the engine above as it existed the funnel, but it isn't! It's a break in the trees! Optical illusion eh!

Caught this ferret having a nose out of this pipe! So cute!

I didn't seem to take any good photographs today, took lots of goats, and giraffes!

All extremely tired..

Wanted to talk about last evening, like I'm going to forget it..

I'm not but just in case! 

Went to eat at a lovely pub about ten minutes from here, very nice pub, french cuisine, ate there last time I was here, back in October last year..

We were chatting to the owner and waitress..

Oh! Nearly forgot, we walked in discussing what drinks we wanted and lo and behold on the bar.. our two drinks! 

But they were for someone else, but still strange, not maybe two drinks one would normal put together even!

So we, chatting to owner and waitress, we moved seats and it was almost like being with friends more than a restaurant!

She came out and said something about the strong garlic smell and that they were cooking frogs legs! 

I hadn't had them in over twenty years! And my friend, never, so we shared a plate of them! Very very nice... 

Then second course chicken and third I knew what I wanted.. an amazing nougat with glace fruits in a beautiful custard..

My friends dessert was Crepe Suzette, and we enjoyed the performance and theatre of them being prepared at our table..

All evening we talked and laughed with them, and when we came around to pay, the people whose drinks we had shared the same tastes as were sat there now, having come in from outside..

And one of them told me I had an amazing energy around me, have I said that right? Not some spooky thing, he meant, said I had a good energy! 

I guess they had been listening, to my rather loud voice lols.. and the over all conversations going on the whole evening..

It was a nice compliment, made me feel better.. you know.. Sometimes we need a boost, and I'm taking that! 

We forget how we are.. and I always used to be that bubbly live wire ... Lost my spark...

And I've not been feeling that for a while now..

Not meaning to sound weird about this.. 

Do you know know what I mean? 

M.

The power of imagination makes us infinite.

John Muir - 1838-1914 - Author

The bakers near my son's... Always a craving for jam doughnuts and iced buns! 

Trouble is for me at the moment, these items should be far and few between for me! 

Took the above photograph the other weekend down on the coast.. 

My son's Lego, now back in the UK... It's an original from 60's or 70's but the box is still in Spain.. I carried it over in my hold case.. it was mostly all that was in the hold case! 

And going back light, although I have for the first time booked Fast Track, Stansted airport security sends me loopy, and I can't just put myself through that again... It is beyond disorganised chaos! 

M.

Sometimes the universe throws you a rope

Bill Hodges

May the 4th (be with you)

Should have been lots of photographs..

But! I was trapped in the car park, well, not me just my car.. the rockets had started at 22:00 Sunday evening, repeated again Monday and Tuesday evenings, same time...

Then yesterday full force dozens of them repeatedly, the band, the people, always a huge procession for Día de la Cruz, also yesterday of course, Romería, May 1st, workers day.

It was still going on when I went to sleep last night well gone eleven, and began again this morning at 8:00 I was rescuing my car and moving her to the big car park...

They'll be no parking for me after work tomorrow that's for sure! Or for anyone, car park has to emptied and won't open again until festivities end at 04:00 

Great, just in time for my taxi to collect me! 

And I am also thinking not much sleep for me tomorrow night, even though I need to be asleep as soon as I can, maybe 8pm, is it the fireworks tomorrow! I don't think so, I think that's for the feria at the end of the month! 

I can feel an Airbnb visit approaching next year!??

It's not just us humans who suffer throughout this rocket fire, it's worse for the animals, Pippa used to run and hide in the bathroom from the first giveaway whoosh those things make before the bang... She would shake, be sick... It was awful..

I know the parade's are tradicional, and it's good, so many countries have lost their own traditions, but the rockets? They are to call people to action, to wake people up! But we have alarms now, phones, alarm clocks... 

Still, it's not my country, not my place to complain about centuries old traditions and a huge reason why I love this country.

Well, turned out the fireworks were on last night, still feels like tonight!

It's 5:49, I'm at the departure gate, and had not much sleep at all! 

I managed to park okay, in the big carpark, ten minutes away... Lug my bags down and shower and get to bed about 8pm, had a cup of mint tea for my sore stomach..very very bad! 

I can't eat what I ate again, or at least for a longer time, three months wasn't long enough! 

Felt so sick all day, struggled to eat my lunch.. I made myself eat a bit of porridge this morning as I'd not eaten since then.. 

By nine I'd turned off TV and Kindle, eyes closed a Nothing Much Happens pod cast on and bang! Bang bang bang about twenty rockets from behind the house..

Then I could follow the course of the band by the direction of the music as it paraded around the church and these narrow streets..

More rocket fire again and again ..

I had shut the both bedroom doors to give me a buffer, but not much, and still awake at 11pm..

I think I might have drifted off slightly, then at 12:30!!! Fireworks! 

I'll try and get the video in here but I think the file will be too big, I'll try some screenshot..

But just imagine a firework display, and you are standing ten feet away, beneath the display! That was me, us, who live just here in our street.

It lasted maybe ten minutes, it used to be twenty, so thankful for that .

It ended and I continued to hear the band playing as it moved around.. about half one by now..

Then alarm went off! 03:15! Whoop whoop!

I did what I had to do, and taxi arrived before the rubbish collection at 04:20 en punto! 

Driver, although I've never used his cab before, is a familiar face for all the years I've lived here, when going to Bar Cruz he is always at the taxi rank. He speaks good English and we talked all the way .. poor man!

I had to check a case in, self check in, very easy and fast once I actually got to the machines.. then bag dropped and done! 

Security, it's usual pandemonium, like no one has ever flown before, conveyors blocked by people leaving fluids in! Time and time again, it has been twenty three years!! 

A bottle of face cream IS a fluid!! Unbelievable, so, you can imagine my stress levels right now!

At least, I guess my bag to carry on is just a satchel I use for flying and light..

Now I bid españa a farewell y hasta pronto! 

M.

Funny, this morning I wrote this to end my Blog

'Often what feels like the end is a new beginning'

And today's insight 

Reads..

Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest.

Unknown

Sometimes the word human is used in the loosest sense of the word.. for instance sitting here waiting for J. to come to out and we get to work.. man shouted at his dog, two with him, the poor downtrodden dog came back and walked between his master and the other boxer, and looked up looking sorry for having walked ahead.  

And the man kicked his leg.

So the dog walked on the other side of his doggy pal..

So sad, this breaks my heart, actually breaks it

I could post the photograph I just took of this man, but I know that would only get me into trouble and the man would never change.

So instead a photograph of an old boxer friend of mine, who only ever wanted to sit on my lap.

M.

Nice relaxing afternoon down on the coast, had lunch then a nap, then down to a beach bar for a coffee.. 

Missed a great shot of a sparrow drinking from a flower on one of those palms trees there in the foreground...

But, when it's gone, it's gone...

After a morning of heavy rain it's turned out to be a beautiful afternoon and evening..

Listening to my Theme tune Spotify play list, presently playing Terry Jacks Seasons in the Sun..

Which actually is strange after a conversation just now... About dads...

Didn't get to go the supermarket this morning, but hey ho!

Feel there is more to say, but I think I'll just relax and listen to the music... 

On Nights in White Satin now... The Moody Blues, when I bought this album from PRP records in town, when I was 15... It skipped a bit on only this track, so I took it back and they tried it on their shop deck and it played fine! So, forever my album skipped a bit! 

M.

Me waiting for J. this morning, now!

My last post was my 1,717th post!

WoW, that would be one very long book! Never mind the ... however many photographs? Sometimes one but sometimes four or five or more! 

Some badly horrendously sad posts, lots of good one, many crazy ones... 

And I guess a helluva lot of mediocre posts? 

I know the normal, regular thing would have been to say this is my 1718th post, but 17 is my lucky number! 

And well, you know me and numerology! 

Yesterday driving to and from work was a nightmare in bad driving from others! Four people overtook on solid white lines just before bends going to work, two on the way home, I know this is fairly normal here, but so many in one day ..

One complete idiot couldn't wait in a line, I guess there was a lot of us, but we were moving, and it was a single lane road, and approaching a junction, so, unfortunately, she, just drove down the other side of the road! Incredible! And just passed her test! She had the 'L' sign on the rear window to tell us that fact! 

Good luck!! 

I picked up my new bed frame yesterday, and last night, too tired to build it...

I just unpacked all the bits, and mechano girl will build it tonight! 

M.

So driving down to the coast this morning, (was a few days ago now!) for work, there's the normal ancient vehicle with no brake lights and only showing one rear white light, there's the tractor on a road with a few nice curves, and people overtaking him on the straights, he's driving right up near the ditch so that people can get past then he pulls back over into the middle when he can see that there's no overtaking and cars coming... perfect, then there's a big van in front of me far too close to the tractor, I'm holding back so I can see ahead of the tractor to see what's coming around the bends, and eventually he moves over, 'you can overtake!'  the van goes, I go and one more.. and I'm smiling at the maneuvering and how much I still love driving, how much I will always love driving, and I thought oh right the art of driving it's all about timing and holding back and then I burst into laughter..

Just heard on tv highly intelligent people get bored easily.. and I always say I never get bored! So laughing to myself... 

Am I really stupid? Or just that I have so much I can do all the time that's why I'm never bored! I always put it down to being an only child in the house... So used my imagination a lot, a lot a lot! 

April 22nd 2015, nine years ago and the Caminito del Rey opened its new walk, and we that first week walked it..

No more crossing over than concrete bridge over the deep ravine..

We were talking about the walk this morning and then later came up on my Google memories.. strange that ...

As so often happens.. 

I've got all of my sofabed downstairs now, ready to go in the morning, and Wednesday a bed I shall build, returning the house back to it's original form...

Feels strange now, downstairs in the living room; gone my view of the Guadhalorce Valley, I mean it's still there, of course, just not from where I sit as I write just now..

I've been unusually building this post for days now! Need to post eventually... 

First though, long week last week, four days of work and it felt like it! 

Saturday I rested, by driving down to the coast to have lunch, popped into work and we went to a nearby bar for lunch.. and very nice it was too.. relaxed and happy, then it was Mercadona and home..

Sunday, back down again to the coast for lunch, had a beautiful walk along the beach first with friends and their comedy dog, she's so sweet.. some dogs hearts are always so open and welcoming... And hers is... She caught me immediately with her beautiful cute little face.. 

Then we ate a damn good Sunday lunch at a restaurant in La Cala, then it was home and takeout cheesecake that I couldn't eat in... And shoes full of Cabopino sand.. and a nap!

Fantastic! 

M.

A Maddocks painting above.. 

Me and my moon...

A strange day today... And probably  too late to be Blogging as I should be sleeping, or relaxing before sleeping, not writing! 

But I'm awake happy and smiling! 

This morning on my way to work fueled up and our old neighbor was there! Couldn't believe it! Was wonderful to see her, hugged at the pumps! And chatted briefly then I was off to work... Hadn't seen her for maybe five years, can't remember when she moved exactly..

So now that's four people I haven't seen for years turning up out of the blue...

But the weirdest thing today was a customer who asked to touch my hair ..

Her husband thought she was being strange I could tell! 

But, well, there we go! An odd request! Happend before, but still, in work!!! 

M.

Random photographs from Porthcawl January 1st 2014, was looking at Pipster photographs and these came up and not so sad memories...

Now! What has been afoot! 

Wednesday I met up with a couple who I met whilst working in England, it was an end of life placement and I was there for about ten days only, I've always remembered that client, it was August 2017 and I used to check on her whenever I woke up, which for me is a lot! But I'd go in, I wanted her to know she wasn't alone..

Anyways! So I was already moved into my temporary location near La Cala, and cat sitting for friends, I drove down to the coast and met the couple in a holiday resort, I parked and walking to the bar a man coming towards me said 'Marian' surprizing me! He recognized me from nearly seven years ago! 

We went and sat down with his wife and we spent the next nearly three hours catching up! 

We had lunch and a couple of cold drinks, was lovely, I had forgotten my sunblock, and came away with a red nose and left arm! 

But I'd been so busy getting my stuff together and getting down to my new place! I'd forgotten to put any on! I'm really wary now of getting my face burnt, my pointy nose primarily! And I've noticed so many sun spots now..

A little too late maybe, but, better late than never I am thinking!

So distressed as usual!

Their cat is so beautiful, she's so loving, she never left me alone for a minute, cuddling up on the sofa, sleeping with me, following me about the house...

I'd forgotten how it is with a cat... But the Pipster was the same... She also never left my side...

Okay! 

Leaving that subject quickly, hastily running backwards from old memories! 

I worked two days while I was staying down on the coast, was nice only having a five minute commute that's for sure! 

And getting home so quickly, so early, I got dinner ready, showered and dinner eaten and relaxing about an hour ahead of normal time, which makes so much difference in feeling so tired after work.

I came back home yesterday, Sunday, and straight away missed the fur-baby.. 

While I was there one of my dreams had chopsticks heavily featured, strange really! I don't generally use them!

Doctor Google says:

'Chopsticks

To dream of chopsticks signifies that you are setting forth in pursuing your goals. You will resolve any current difficulties with satisfaction, through persistence and correct behavior.

If the chopsticks were damaged, you may expect to make a long journey, or to see old friends soon'

I don't remember them being damaged? But I have seen some old friends recently, three in a week! Which is very strange!

And a journey is planned!

Today nice and easy, town and coffee with good friends, bought a few bits and home!

The top part of my dresser went this afternoon, I noticed a sticker on the back, and a date! 

Made by Broyhill, an American furniture company, now no longer in business, and this piece was made January 1980... 

I never knew any of this, for the past nine years of owning it, we bought it for €70 from La Trocha car boot, and it is actually, was, actually worth some money!

Not now though, the people who took half and never even bothered to come back for the top half, keeping the glass shelves they'd taken! 

And the beautiful top section has gone to the dump!

My stepfather would be turning in his grave! If he was in one! 

M.

"Only put off until tomorrow that you are willing to die having left undone."

Pablo Picasso

Above the calima Sunday down in Los Boliches.. the skies turn apocalyptic when full of sand.. always strange always amazing!

I was meeting up with friends, a school friend who I've been friends with since we were eleven! I hadn't seen them for years, can't remember when, I'm sure before I moved out here?

Was so good to spend time with them, was emotional actually, more than I realized, I felt like they were home, a part of my old home come to visit, and felt good.

We talked about other school friends and what's been happening and when and where... I told them about a coincidence meeting someone here who had lived in Berkhamstead, and whose two children were at school with ours, that I'd met him in a tiny pueblo two and a half hours away from here in Alhaurín, and whose number count is five hundred, and the weird coincidence of it, that I'd only met him and his partner because I'd visited a friend's house there..

When I said his name, they knew him! Crazy!! 

This afternoon I was watching a channel 5 series about the Fox, that time, 1984, was such a scary time, he was based in the Leighton Buzzard and surrounding areas, but we were half an hour away and I felt he was too close for comfort.

Through family links, police in the family, we had some inside information about what the man was doing, that made it so much worse, information that hadn't reached the papers or general public... At that time.

'The Intruder, he's watching you from Within' is the name of the series, I have to admit, its got my heart rate up recalling this awful time!

Had a good day today, went into town early to have coffee with an early bird friend at 8am, then chatted with a friend in her shop until other friends arrived at ten... Stayed an hour or more, but got so tired! I came home and napped! Because I could! 

I missed a call while I napped, and saw it was from an English number, I checked the answer phone as they'd left a message! 

Someone else I haven't seen for years! Not so long though, seven years.. meeting them for coffee mañana, added to my neighbor from when I lived down near El Zoco, that came in the store last week and hadn't seen her since well before covid it's turning into a crazy old week for sure!

M.

A photograph taken at my secret spot.. I should go there again soon.. 

And today:

Well, that was a bit rough, taking and dropping some items off at the charity shop... Seeing other things of mine I'd taken before... Bit unexpectedly upsetting.. damn these emotions! 

I'm taking nothing I need or want or will really even miss, and it feels so good not having so much stuff! Oddly I can't see where it all went, I must have squirreled it away nicely!

Still, seeing them out of context, there, was rough!

Firstly though I had to wait in for a couple to come and take the dresser, well, they took half of it and now say their car has broken down!? 

I'm sure it has, but, you know, that little itch of doubt is there.. they have the best half! The base! 

So, until they come back.. I have the china cabinet bit! 

I've booked the car in for it's ITV at the end of month, dropped a load of broken bits at the bins and tidied up some other things! 

Had a coffee at Monikas while I waited for the mechanic to return to his workshop, sitting outside on this beautiful spring day.. but still in the shade of our Sierra de Mijas...

Now time to relax! 

And see if they come back for the other half!! My message half an hour ago has gone unread...

M.

2.4.24

Cool date today! 

2.4.24 or 4.2.24 depending on here or state side..

Having the front of my house painted as I write, and found a new owner for the wonderful dresser! I'll let you know though when it's actually gone ...

Everyone shouting "hola" to the painter as they pass, he's obviously well known, and liked.. which is good.

Early té this morning at Bar Cruz at 8am! Pretty chilly! Followed by a coffee at 9... 

Then off to Aldi and managed to do a partial shop! Have dinner for a few days, and heavy things, milk, water etc... now I don't have my tap filter I am buying water again ..

I was going to walk back into town, but managed to stay home! And sort out some more unwanted, unneeded items; it feels so good unloading all these things that I haven't used for years.

Why do we hold onto things like this? I think they've made me very heavy.. 

I have some things I'll never let go of, things people will question as to why that? Or this? Why!! 

Attachment. Issues.

Now to close I need a poem, I've given myself a two day break on Facebook from reposting poems and other such items in general!

Let me search!

Mmm nope can't find anything!

Journeys, beginnings

Paths and tracks

Moving forward, don't look back

Embrace the change

Feel the breeze

Listen to the trees..

©MB

Okay, made my own! Sorry about that!

M.

April 1st

 

Don't know why this track, I read down through my list of keeps and played a few lines of a few songs.. This I stopped at and this I am sharing..

Marcus Mumford Lay your head on me.. 

I have just lit the fire, maybe only logs left for this and one more fire...

This morning snow on the Sierra De Las Nieves! At last, first time this winter, I had been worrying about that hadn't I! It was 5° when I got up, as aforementioned, but 4° when I left for town!

Incredible, colder here than in the UK or New York when I checked!

When I was lighting the fire, I pulled out two things I'd left behind to collect the odd drop of rain that makes it's way down the flu when the rain is heavy...

The biggest had a drop of sooty water and the other, bone dry with a feather inside...

I am a believer in the meaning of finding feathers where least expected.. this was so lovely to find today...

Especially today, and the dream, with my mom it says in my search of dream meanings with your mom.. 

'She may appear in dreams to guide and support you through difficult periods.'

Thank you mom..

And I think two Blogs in one day is quite enough! More of today, tomorrow...

Tomorrow, begin again... I love this phrase, begin again.. makes the day feel new, fresh and full of promise..

M.

Whoa 5° on my terrace right now! Still looks like rain has passed.. thankfully now .

Bring on spring! And it's time for my winter duvet to clear off!! Although, so saying, I do love being cosy and wrapped up inside it..

A school friend is arriving later in the week, they're staying down on the coast, and I will see them at some point, it has been many many years .. decades in fact.. maybe 30 years? More? 

I woke up this morning from a weird dream, we were at my mom's, my boys and I, and we were in the sun lounge at the front of the house, and she closed the curtains, but didn't! (You know dreams!) Instead, in error, the whole sun lounge moved away from the house, it turned in the driveway, went down the hill and ended up by someone's house and had to stay there! 

Didn't see the boys but there were three miniature monkeys who decided to run back home! 

Now a cup of tea and my day begins.

M.

Car park mishap above, when I was walking through this morning, it doesn't take much, one car parked completely wrong the silver one on the right, and no one can come or go! 

Seen some weird parking up here over nineteen years but this was a whole new level-up!

When I had freed the end of the sofa bed, I found Pippa's toy here... The squeaker removed, of course, her top priority in all new squeaky chew toys! 

Can I throw it away? Who knows, one day eh..

Last night's procession started much earlier, and I didn't expect to see it at all with the rain that was forecast.

I can't upload the longer video, it's on my Facebook.. This shows a little of the view from my balcon last night ..

Before it got dark they were carrying Jesus Christ with the cross through our street this is normally at 2:00 a.m. and he was followed last night by Mary which is usually a different day altogether! 

My neighbor sent me a small video showing Jesus with the cross walking through town but he never came down our street first.. So definitely a shortened version of our Semana Santa procession.

And not long after it finished, the heavens opened!

So I'm thinking they had inside information!

Today was so busy at work, we had sold all our Easter eggs earlier on in the week and had a small second delivery of eggs yesterday, they had all gone within a couple of hours, I think if we had had another 30 or 40 we could have sold them all today, so many people complaining about us running out, and they were the very same people that complained when we got the eggs nearly two months ago!

Still, a very good day, we smiled and laughed all the way through despite it raining nearly all day, torrential at times and we had our own small river running through the back store room!

I think some of the customers thought we were drunk, we were certainly on a different planet most of the day!

I bought myself an Easter egg this year because..  well why not! I will surprise myself with it in the morning!

It is nearly 10pm now and there is definitely a storm brewing outside..

I love the sound of the wind and rain at night while I'm all tucked up safely in bed.

M.

We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.

Oscar Wilde's 'The Duchess of Padua

Benadalid last June above and so below..

The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes.

Arthur Conan Doyle 

I think this is very true.. we walk mostly with eyes closed to the world around us..

I love catching sight of things others have missed, the tiny flower, the insect unseen, something strange and unusual in strange and unusual places... 

I've been lucky, I've taken some great photographs of things like that, from the He-Man figure partially exposed walking through a forest in Wales, to tiniest of flowers growing from bare rock on The Kings Walk... Remember that furry bug one morning walking into town? Me, not the bug!? Well, maybe he was!

It's definitely time for more like that..

I've stopped seeing, I've stopped looking.. time again now.

And now to other things..

Two days ago? Three? I had began dismantling the sofa bed in my living room, even from inside I couldn't undo that last bolt! So! Yesterday! I tried again from above wedging the right-hand bit open with my left knee, I had dismantled my allen Key Set and taken out the one I needed, it was turning too easily I think where it had been over turned when built, so I gently tapped it in and using the small screwdriver for leverage I bit by bit turned the key! And voilà! Out it came!

Yesterday it rained most of the day and after that I did mostly nothing at all! Gathered a few bits ans pieces, tidied and tried not to think too much.. at work I had got so upset.. and I can't keep doing that, bringing it in with me.. 

Anyways, so this morning started with rain and I thought would continue, so I decided to try and fix my kitchen drawer, the top one, the cutlery drawer, it's been living precariously above it's mate beneath, literally, stuck to it! Opening the lower drawer to access the top one! 

My ingenious idea about four years ago.. or longer, but not practical!

Today I separated them, I used hard as nails glue to hold the brackets on and went to town...

Met with friends and had coffee in Bar Rosa, just got in when the heavens opened and it poured down for some time, I left and got down to friends store and home and no more rain! 

Been cloudy but beautiful sunshine since..

The glue hasn't worked at all, so I cleaned it off, dried it and used an abrasive to roughen it up a bit, more glue and about six screws.

I hope I have fixed the two brackets which hold the drawers in place! Bit wonky, for some reason, but, job done! 

Why didn't I fix this years ago?

I don't know.. I have no idea, maybe thought I couldn't do it, but after yesterday and getting that bolt out, quite cleverly I thought! Maybe it gave me confidence.

Just about to hit post, and I see a fine line of sunshine on the wall here, it means summer is on its way.. it wasn't there Monday, I had seen the sun reaching my balcon, but here it is in the house..

And tomorrow we spring forward an hour!

M.

This morning from the car park as I walked through it..

These words below, my "insight of the day' that lands in my inbox daily, made me stop and think..

Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it.

Brene Brown - Professor-Lecturer-Author

Is this why I keep on the move, I'm running away from my own truth.. 

This week is becoming unbearable, as always this week does.. it is truly as though Franco dies every year still, for me.. 

Would people say I'm running away from this by not wanting to be here any more?

Maybe?

I don't know any more.

And this week has Semana Santa.. parking and noise, think I'll raise a tent on the beach and sleep there the rest of the week! 

M.

I have to wrap up everything in the dresser, and I was going to begin today, but I'm not sure I have the umph to get going.. 

I picked up a small pot with coins, I'm going to sort out coins now, instead.. 

I did it though yesterday, in the end...

And today, scratch that, right now this evening .. and I was trying to unscrew this sofa bed.. I did manage to make a dent in the soft cardboard base! 

And on the plus side I know I can fit in this tiny space!! 

But that top lefthand screw was wrecked! I guess when the guys put it together.. so not sure at this moment what to do.. actually if it's just holding the side panel on, it's okay!

I took some more stuff to a charity store today, and just now emptying this I have another small pile already..

We had much rain today! Yesterday it started with a random heavy shower, sounded like hail stones, followed by a few hours of rain over night ...

And today on and off showers all day.. 

I had the doctor's this morning as an update on my raised meds, she sent me for an immediate ECG in the urgencia section, and said it's okay, so thats good enough! 

M.

There are many paths but only one journey.

Naomi Judd - 1946-2022 - Singer-Actress

I can never un know or un remember things.. 

Remembering going into the hospital yesterday for the last ten days of Franco's life

We went in expecting one thing and it became another

Although things in life are, and can be expected always, even those become unexpected when it comes down to it..

I wonder if when we die, we awaken somewhere and get a huge shock or happy surprize.. 

I do believe there is something waiting, I can't believe we go through all this for nada..

And well, lets be honest if nothing is the answer then we won't know it!

The photograph above are my marbles! I found them all! Just joking, they're still lost, this was in the restaurant last Sunday? Was it only last Sunday?  En Restaurante El Comercio!

This photograph, San Pedro, along the boulevard.. also below

The stress we put ourselves in.. This morning a fine example of probably the reason for my Chronic Gastritis.. 

The kitchen tap become undone from its moorings under the sink! 

And me off to work... Flipping heck! I wanted to grab my passport and run for the hills! 

But more to the point couldn't eat my porridge, I just felt sick and what I was eating hurt my stomach.. which is doesn't normally..

I am guessing all the stress of the last seven years has reached it's limit in my body, so Gastritis has occurred, never to go away, a grim reminder, we are killing ourselves with our thoughts, our stresses and worries...

A slow suicide 

The rather obscure photograph above is the remains of my second skin when it was peeled off Tuesday! 

M.

I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance. The cloud clears as you enter it. I have learned this, but like everyone, I learned it late. ~Beryl Markham 

The jar that held the sand from 1989.. for 155pts.. I recycled the jar, it has become heavier over the years... No more sand.. just heavier in memories..

I'm glad he sand and shell held within have gained their freedom after thirty-five years.. 

Just an abstract view of a flower trailing above my head walking back up from the boardwalk at Playa Luna Mar.. that was the name I'm sure Originally? It's not now, everything changes eh!

I took this when we were having lunch last week, I was focusing on the plants on the terrace on the apartment there..

Just from the car park here... My car was beautifully covered in blossom the other day..

Just a short photograph Blog post really right now..

Had a day of stomachache, had other plans but instead, a sofa day, and movies .. even the old Penelope Cruz movie Jamón Jamón.. it's not the best ever movie by any standards, but it's funny and crazy! 

I first watched it back in about '98, it's a '92 movie.. but looks older... 

Vale, mañana amigos...

M.