Photograph above taken up at Alhaurín Golf, ten years ago... Someone else lifes, was it mine?

Feels strange.. it came up on a memory on my Facebook.. I'm sure I can switch them off if I want to.. but I don't, want to.

Life only moves on when the terms for acknowledging all that's gone before have been reached.. Mmm need to keep that quote! 

We had very high winds today, felt like the house was going to take off! 

I luckily or unluckily have been tucked up in bed for the most part of the day, two days of a sore throat last week and mouthy me proudly exclaimed that nothing came of it! But two days later it did! And am still suffering, more as the week has progressed.

Have been up and still up and about now, on my third medicinal drink of the day, that's actual cold remedy hot drink, sounded a bit like an alcoholic beverage then didn't it!

Last weekend went for a wonderful drive through Derbyshire, and stopped in an area where barges more up, I've forgotten the name of it! 

There were stores and restaurants, and a nearby canal to walk along, which we did..

We stopped for lunch along the canal, an Indian restaurant, sitting on bench by the water, before hot day, low twenty's... I got sunburnt, just for the helluva it!

Was a very beautiful day... 

Photograph below was at Nottingham Castle.. 

M.

 "Anni, amori e bicchieri di vino, nun se contano mai"

Missed a Blog post from last week... 

So a quick bit from yesterday, which is actually still today, but posted already!! 

ps it's Thursday now!!

Today went to the Castle with son and his babes... Them and me running around on the climbing castle, it's fun, not so much even at my vertically challenged height! Having to keep low from knocking myself out, but so much fun! 

Sat on a bench, at a bench I should say! For lunch and rests, and coffee from the café on site.. 

A lady bug came to say 'hello' and flew off when I got to close with my phone for close up photographs! 

Also a Bombylius major, the fly bee... They are so amazing to watch! 

After the castle we went into a favorite shop of ours, Forbidden Planet it's called... A comic book store with everything plus more more more! 

I said to my son, 'I most certainly haven't grown up because I just want everything in here, and more or less everything everywhere else too!' He said something like, 'that's a good thing, no one wants or should grow up, that would be boring..'

Wise words indeed son.

M.

The idea is to die young, as late as possible!

Someone asked me yesterday about am I more relaxed now... and I replied yes I am, because I most definitely am, after 2024..  what a year... 

Not my worse, by any means, but still not sure how I got through it in one piece, oh hang on! That I didn't do! Not in one piece, but in many pieces!

Although still, it's a bit like PTSD, I can't think about much of my twenty three years in Spain without crumbling... And I wish I could just stop and think, remember so many amazing best days of my life, best years of my life really, age, fitness levels.

It's such a big great wonderful part of my life, but leaving it still breaks me.. I want to look back at my thousands of photographs, I want to close my eyes and go back to days and places and people, I want be relive and be happy about the happiest times...

But as soon as I begin I want to cry and I literally can't take the overwhelming feeling of loss that comes into my heart, loss of it all, especially my home, my house, my home overall. It chokes me.

I don't want to be like a client I had in healthcare who lost large pieces of her memories, not through dementia, but through stress and loss and sadness.

We live our lives to enjoy and to remember and take these amazing lives we live through with us, onwards and upwards! As Aslan says!

Funny I end my Blog today here, with these words, when the quote below I placed there weeks ago, always ahead in quotes while sometimes slow on posts...

M.

Seeing death as the end of life is like seeing the horizon as the end of the ocean.”

—David Searls