Sugar Bay, Marbella the other evening.. lovely location, right at the beach, but very very cold. Blankets were supplied! The gin was good also, Le Tribute the tonic also Le Tribute.. very strong and I'm not used to it.. 

Today was way too busy.. doctors first! Appointments will be arriving for eye doctor and physio! Not for the same complaint!! That would be weird! 

I then had to pop into the garage near Coín, and on to Aldi! 

I came home with something I hadn't put in my basket! I'd also paid for it?? So I am guessing it came from the next customer?? 

Nothing exciting either, chewing gum! 

But as you may have noticed by the unusually large amount of selfies, not normal!! 

I popped into the nearest hairdressers to enquire about getting it colored, and he said now!! 

Which I was definitely not expecting, and two and a half hours later I emerged! 

He was ready to go with the color he could see, but I said I wanted some 'pop' difficult to see here.. but will try for a better shot tomorrow!

When I came out the wind was blowing a storm.. well, just wind but very strong and I didn't want to hang around outside.. 

I've come to bed early, to watch a family movie.. 😂😂 Once upon a time in America! 

Just saying! But couldn't see any Bonelli's in the titles! 

M.

Out on friends bike today, passenger of course.. much more relaxing.. not sure I could ever hold up a bike on my own..

Walked up the street looking like a cowboy without his horse.. or a cowgirl!?! 

Or just a woman with leather jacket, armoured jeans and lid! 

Went first to Motorcycle shop in Alhaurín de la Torre, Motos Garrido.. I got some gloves, and had I had X amount of money, although a good priced store.. just so many nice things!! To wear so little! So would be very silly also.. 

Had a coffee in nearby bar.. not good coffee and they took the money but didn't bring the coffee?? Must be the first time ever in Spain!?

Then went to Plaza Mayor which is also McArthur Glen.. the designer outlet..

Had another coffee, then came back to Alhaurín via the coast road and up past Mijas pueblo..

Really nice four hours out.. cold.. but nice.

I was starving when I got home... So eaten and now feel like a siesta! 

Wonderful amazing night last evening, moon Jupiter Venus perfect alignment..

My photo isn't that great, so adding the same from my constellation app..

Beautiful.. I could watch the stars all night..

M.

ps my asteroid dream is still on my mind..

The skies here have been looking decidedly strange last two days.. 

Yesterday morning, photograph above, but a little bit more normal but Monday evening the setting sun over Alhaurín was more sand colored than rosy red.. 

It started to rain in the evening also and kept on for a few hours.. 

And yesterday morning when I got to my car... It was filthy with dirt.. 

Above photograph taken Sunday early evening, had no filters.. very strange light..

Work yesterday in the shop and today I am off soon, bit later and to the warehouse.. yesterday was a good day as always, in spite or is it despite, the customers! 

But last night, or rather early hours of today, a very deep in-depth dream.. which may have taken mere moments to dreams.. felt to me hours, way too much to write.. but asteroids were falling all around me, small ones like pebbles, others the size of dinner plates.. they were hot! I reached out and touched some of them.. feeling the enormity of touching a piece of space.. felt amazing.. I mean, in my dreams, nothing lucid, as far as I am aware however wonderful or awful, my dreams are my reality when I sleep.. and this dream was amazing.. apart from the ones that fell, I also was amazed at the shooting stars that pasted by.. so many overhead in the dark sky above my head.. 

Only now I have Googled the meaning..

*Asteroids Dreams*

If the meteor or asteroid turns into a shooting star in your dream it represents your prayer or wish will come true.

'People also ask

What is the meaning of seeing asteroid in the dream?'

It brings unexpected problems with much more severe losses. This dream signifies radical changes and possible disasters or significant impacts that you did not expect. In another view, a meteorite in a dream reflects your vulnerability to unexpected significant changes.

So! Sounds like a warning for today? 

I'll drive carefully? Lift the heavy stuff carefully? 

I don't know.. 

Driving home the other day, in the light still.. on a bend a man was on my side of the road a good two feet, his gaze not on the road but down, probably on his phone, I moved as quickly and safely as I could, but didn't want to hit my barrier either! He must have been doing well over 80 because I was doing 70 and my car was rocked by his speed and closeness.

Take care my friends..

Enjoy every day, every moment, find the good in eachother..

M.

Today after coffee I drove over to Coín, popped into the garage because I was worried my passenger door was about to fall off! Got that fixed.. probably could have, should have! Done that sooner! 

Then I went onto La Trocha and had a coffee up in the shopping area, did a bit of shopping and then to Aldi.. 

Once I was home it was a quick change and off up the mountain!

Passed a man walking and a man on bike, as he passed he said "buenas tardes guapa.." (good afternoon beautiful), it's a very common phrase used by men and women to any girl/woman, from baby to aged.. bit like saying in English, "hi ya, how you doing".. so it's lost any significance I guess.. but I'm sorry, it's still a buzz from a younger man! How sad am I!! 🙈

Above view of the sea in the distance, I didn't get as far as usual.. probably only another kilometer, but it was hard going, didn't sleep well last night, and I really had to push myself.. 

There was a wonderful breeze which kept passing through the forest.. I love it when the wind travels in waves like that.. 

In the photograph below you cannot see what I saw! A beautiful yellow butterfly was flying and landed in here.. so I approached and the butterfly landed on the underside of a group of leaves, closed its wings, the underside of which were green and before I knew it, the butterfly had morphed into the tree! I could still see it, but no way here in the photograph!

Amazing how nature has a way of protecting itself from predators.. can't see us humans going unseen in front of wolves or bears.. not that I've seen many of those on our mountain! 

While I was walking, especially up hill, and my hip pain was really bad, I thought how when I thought it was the fibromyalgia it didn't hurt so badly, but now I know it's other stuff it hurts more now.. our minds can be our best friend and our worse enemy when it comes to our health.

This was an amazing moment, photograph below, the sun was catching something.. didn't see a mist, but it looks like it.. just an amazing look above the track.. stunning, so beautiful.. incredible.

I collected some pinecones and twigs, I have seen a brilliant idea, so tomorrow that might happen!

Almond blossom above and cherry blossom below.. 

While I was walking back I could hear this music, a deep beat booming through the forest.. Then I spotted a black 4 x4 up the next mountain path.. thought it was the sound of Jumanji for a moment!

I've walked this track a lot, but never seen this hole, cave? Not very big, but I could have slipped in there.. and not got out again!! Need to bring a torch next time, there's this and the big tunnel I want to investigate! Couldn't get any light in here for a good enough photograph.

Walked a headache out this morning and then I walked a headache back! But by the time I was home it had gone.. 

M.

Valentines Day

Pretty poor photograph content today! 

Should be something romantic, something red filled with hearts and flowers!

Well above sign is red.. Burger King! Joined a neighbor last evening to get his stock, then went here.. I only had ice-cream.. due to having had a large lunch in the restaurant Indian Flavour in Alhaurín yesterday.. 

And a counter full or oranges and lemons from a friends garden .. very nice..

Work was good today, as always, customers were all I good spirits.. apart from the ones who weren't! 

Cool again today, but it's quite nice.. after such a long hot summer... 

Happy Valentine's everyone.. 

M.

Okay, so don't know what happened last night.. sat with friend, we'd got a beer each.. just talking and relaxed.. I'm looking around and said how strange but I'd never noticed that clock before!! High up above the tree from where we sat, my friend said she hadn't either.. we commented on it's strange look, like it was only half out of the building.. time wasn't right either.. 

I've been seeing this view since '89.. so seriously worried about my normal noticing things like I do! 

When we walked along..

We saw what in fact it actually was/is!!

I don't know if it was the suggestion by me of a clock.. but we both saw a clock, both saw Roman numerals.. both saw Art Deco!

The power of suggestion? 

We were in hysterics walking back, literally bent over laughing crying! People looked at us like we were crazy! 

It might not have been a clock, but funny how I hadn't noticed the strangeness of it before!

 

This last week isn't dissimilar.. I took a few photographs of some knife throwing practice (!?) and looking beyond to the left and mostly level with the knife.. that tree there between roads... It looks like a figurehead of a ship! 

Well, to me anyways..

No bizarre sights here.. just a moment yesterday on the terrace, warmer up there than in the house.. 

I had a doctors appointment today, but cancelled, my lack of doctor type Spanish so severely lacking, I decided my tendonitis could wait.. I have a stone making me sick today.. but no infection.. hey ho! 

M.

 

In Malaga for the day on Friday, cold but sunny.. this amazing super yacht was in the harbour .. info courtesy of the Olive Press newspaper..

Tried to take a photograph I'd not taken before in the park near the port..

This was a lucky moment with these parakeets so close..

And from the bus on the way home, also a lucky moment, seeing this little chap watching the road from his apartment! 

M.

Every exit is an entry somewhere else.

Tom Stoppard - Playwriter-Screenwriter

My sadness I carry deep inside me, it used to be on the surface, nearly every day, scratch that.. most days.

Now it's further down, which is good.. but life brings it up, the sadness surfaces like an air bubble escaping from under deep water

A movie, a song, more often just life

I wonder if a day will come when the sadness lays quietly it's head down and says.. she's done, let her be.

Or if forever it will lay only dormant, simply slumbering.. rolling in its sleep to remind me of its presence.

This has come to me this morning early, awake at five.. cuppa tea at half past, watching second movie before leaving my warm bed for the cold house.. 

Need to get my head in order.. 

I'll be fine once I'm up, always better after eating and a coffee..

Had a great day yesterday, it's going to be a good day today!

Need photograph for here.. bare with! 

I laugh to myself choosing a stormy view taken the other morning going to work.. that's the view above..

The next is from Mijas pueblo last week

M.

And we have 0° .. crazy!! 

This morning again.. It's always very strange when I reach the last episode of Frasier, always feel a little bereft.. As I've already posted the Tennyson poem at least twice, my search in the top left-hand corner of the desktop version of this page, tells me.. 

Last time was September 2017, but I'm sure I've repeated myself again since then? Seems only last year?

I am prone to repeating, after twenty years Blogging, I give myself permission for that!

I usually play that last episode twice, but not today. I'm done with it! 

Just makes me sad..

And in searching for the poem I came across a different poem, from August 7 2009.. Felt strange reading that one, seeing so much change since then.

It's way too cold here, never honestly seen in this cold.. felt it this cold.. got the halogen fire on at the moment, and my hands and feet are like ice, it's 10° in here with the fire on! 

M.

Everything is about chance isn't it, when it comes down to it... 

Mom and I atop a church in Oxford about 1987.

If anything was different about our parents, grandparents, even a different moment of conception by anyone at any time those ancestors of ours.. hahaha sorry! But it's true.. isn't it.. 

Therefore we are all here by chance.. So grab those chances that come to you, they are meant for you to grab! 

Ashridge Forest about 1990

I, in this weird head of mine sometimes even wonder how my day would have been had I taken a different turn on the road, or crossed the road somewhere different.. 

Everything makes for happenings.

Yes maybe in an extra strange mind just now, spent nearly six hours going through my old photographs, which also meant going through my mom's photos! 

Yep, definitely still a hippy chick.. age 13

The majority in plastic, four photos to a page, some had two to four in and then the packets..

I have now filled the plastic sleeves with up to five or six in each, thrown away a whole bag full of photos, kept important ones.. so have hundreds.. maybe a thousand so far? At least, will have a better idea tomorrow when I finish the job! 

About 1987

Spending all that time doing this I look around and nothing to show for it! But, I have meant to sort them out for a long time, so I should be happy with that! 

This dress, a cousin bought it over from the states, it was my aunt Gloria's, I tried it on.. fitted beautifully.. 

Then he took it back home.. 

I look like I would have back in the times of wild wild West!

And lastly, don't normally put many of me, so way too many today.. 

These two were taken about 1999 I think.. from the gardens in Mijas, overlook the Fuengirola coastline.

M.

New moon

January 21, 2023: Closest New Moon Since the Middle Ages

By Graham Jones. Published 17-Jan-2023RSS

This Saturday's New Moon will be the closest New Moon to Earth in a period of 1337 years.

timeanddate's Moon phase visualization tool showing the New Moon for January 2023

The New Moon of January 2023 coincides with the point in the Moon’s orbit where it is closest to Earth.

©timeanddate

A Remarkably Close New Moon

According to our calculations, on January 21, 2023, the New Moon will be at its closest distance to Earth for the last 992 years.

The next time the New Moon is this close to Earth will be 345 years from now, making this the closest New Moon in 1337 years.

And also at this time the ZTF comet should be able to be seen all night.. 

Well I've just been on the terrace, and what with my chimney and neighbours either side all puffing out enough smoke to give Victorian London smog a run for it's money.. no chance.. the whole town is awash with smoke.. the sky has plenty of stars but the haze between them and I was pretty dense! 

Had a good day yesterday, town and lunch and home... I bought a halogen fire, for quick heat.. why I am putting up with being cold in 2023 I have no idea!! 

I couldn't carry it home, had a nice curry lunch and got a cab! It's been eighteen years here soon, and only caught a cab home twice now.. 

The first time must be over ten years ago, and cost 5€ so pulling up outside my house yesterday I was unsure what price it would be... It was 5€! 

No change in a minimum of ten years.. 

A small daffodil in my little garden area.. a miniature daff.. small but perfectly formed! 

Today I went out later in the afternoon, so with difficulty I stayed in all morning.. my time for being out usually.. 

Was colder in the house than outside! 

Lit my burner when I got home, so house is nice and toasty.. 

I am still coughing well, and whatever is in my lungs is still rattling around and making the weirdest of noises.. worse laying down, but even sitting or walking.. 

I do feel much better though thankfully!

And tomorrow I think the market! Wrap up well and head out early! 

TTFN amigos!

M.

Well friends, I've been, correction am sick with a damn cough virus thing, not covid, tested for it.. and I'm glad of that, because this has made me too sick to move much out the bed for three solid days, day four I went out for air.. 8am for half an hour, came home and spent rest of the day not moving.. 

Day five, Saturday? I walked into town but came home and slept for two hours.. 

Yesterday? Didn't go out just stayed sick.. 

And now I am out, standing by my car for air and collecting a colleague who feels mostly the same as me! 

This is, must be the worse a cough has ever in my life made me feel, so why I am eternally thankful it's not covid, my lungs can't take this attack as it is.

I got cough meds from farmacia.. I think it's helped, not sure.. and drinking lemon honey and ginger, chucking in some chilli flakes now also, just for the helluva it! 

Well, home from work, luckily a short day, coughing my way through, talking makes it so much worse! But me and silent don't walk hand in hand! 

Still, it's only a cough and will pass..

Other people are not so lucky, a friend today isn't good, but hopefully will be home and okay this evening! 

Someone else we know is in ICU.. 

And yesterday I made the mistake of checking on someone I have known since 1994, and working in Mercedes.. him and his wife lived out here, before me, in Alhaurín also as it happens. But moved back to the UK .. I found out he passed September 2022... So that's five friends passed last year. Two in their 50's three in their 80's.. but still...No time is really the right time. 

Also, I found randomly, someone I supported back in 2018 died in 2019... very young at only 72.. 

Okay amigos.. stay well! Or at least try.. trying is difficult I know... 

Oh just remembered another photograph, it's borrowed... One moment..

This is very very good.

M.

Well of course strange things always happen don't they? And I know not just to me.

Watching a bit of a horror movie just now and Tarot cards in the movie, Jessabelle it's called.. seen it before a while ago I guess.. anyway, I digress as usual.. 

Grabbed my cards and did a short reading, but a card fell out and it was the one above.. 

Bizarre, as it's the Chinese year of Rabbit which begins this year, isn't it? Of all the cards to fall out.. 

So I am guessing means something especially for me this year..

'It is even considered auspicious to start a family in 2023. Above all, though, the Year of the Rabbit is predicted to be a year of hope, largely because the rabbit is associated with peace, prosperity and longevity in Asia.'

Is a little of what I read.. well, maybe I won't be starting a family!!! But the rest reads well... 

I get info about comets and meteorites.. I love staring skywards at night.. 

This appeared today.. 

'Comet Hale-Bopp, whose long orbit brought it close to Earth during the heydey of ancient Athens and Sparta, and again in 1997 (the heyday of the Spice Girls and the Backstreet Boys). Hale-Bopp won’t visit the inner Solar System again for another 2,373 years.'

I remember so vividly looking out the back door of the house my son's and I lived in near the old Rex cinema in Berkhamsted.. and seeing the comet.. 

So much has happened since then yet still feels like yesterday...

After work on the 5th I brought two work friends home with me, we went into town, had a really great evening.. we walked along with the camels.. and got hit by high velocity sweets! Sparing with children and adults all trying to catch them! And got covered with confetti!

We had a curry, then a drink in a bar on the way home, changed into our comfies and had a few shots watching three movies...or two movies? One twice! 

We talked and laughed and talked some more.. said goodnight about half past two.. 

Got up late and carried on talking.. we then walked into town for lunch, or brunch? Back up to the house and I drove them back to the coast and their respective homes.. 

Made a really lovely change from the normal, and getting out to see the Three Kings.. was good. Very good.

M.

Other conversations we've had, my colleague and I, he asked me, if I could when would I like to be able to suddenly appear, unseen and unable to communicate with, or change anything..

My first thought, being me? Was to revisit someone I've loved and lost.. but that wouldn't help me when after a moment I'm back in the present would it..

So in retrospect I thought the dawn of time.. see how it really began, how we really began.

But then, do we really want the truth.. we have so many varied beliefs and all are the truth to us, and we live, mainly, happily within those truths.

For some the truth would be what we already thought we knew, but to others, total destruction.

And I don't think I want to see the future.

So given all possibilities, maybe just see what today holds, and look at it from a different perspective.

M.

 

I bought a hat! Needs pimping.. will do that now! 

From last night:
I wanted to write my Blog this evening on my laptop... seems the B  isnt working, so will have to add that from my phone!! Terrific!! She says sarcastically!! 

Ive pulled off the key pad for the B but nothing changed!! The pad beneath is fixed tightly and not moving a bit!

Today went to the warehouse for work, and chatting to my colleague on the  way and way back... interesting conversation, the sort I almost have on my own actually, especailly the life and death conversations...

For instance as I pulled out, suddenly and quickly from a side road we had een waiting for sometime, the thought crossed my mind, had we actually made the turn or had the truck struck us.. and if we hadn't would our minds still think we had... 

And reading a piece from an online item, and Sophia's ideas about death only the day before.. 

Okay can't do anymore on here... what with the key just skating around on the keyboard now as I've destroyed it in my 'fix it' or break it! mode!

Back to today! And the article.. 

Copying and pasting here.. hoping I am not infringing on anyone, anything!! 

©Sophia Dembling

Widow's Walk

GRIEF

Grief and the Passage of Time

Personal Perspective: Time brings healing, but also heartbreak.

Posted December 29, 2022 Reviewed by Tyler Woods

KEY POINTS 

• In grief, we must come to terms with leaving our loved ones behind in time.

• The passage of time is necessary for healing, but at the same time can be painful.

• Some physicists suggest that time is an illusion -a controversial but soothing theory.

The power of time has its limits

Admittedly, this is still cold comfort to me. I wish Tom were here, next to me, passing the time with me, aging alongside me, moving into the future with me. But whatever we be- lieve about time, two facts are indisputable: One is that our loved ones are no more or less gone today than they were the day they died. And the other is that no matter how much time passes, we will not forget them. Days, weeks, months, years, decades, can elapse, and the person we loved and lost will remain in our hearts, no closer or farther away than they were the moment they drew their last breath. Our memories, love, and connection did not die with them. Those are within us and will be for as long as we live. No length of time can erase our loved ones from our hearts; time doesn't have that power.

The distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion."

In physics, there is a theory called the "block universe," which posits that time is merely a construction mankind created to make order of our universe and that, in reality, past, present, and future all exist simultaneously. Some physicists vehemently dispute this the- ory, but that it not my battle to wage. I don't pretend to understand the physics behind it -that's way above my pay grade and intellectual capacity-but it is a soothing thought, isn't it? Perhaps we are not moving away from each other in time but living together in this block universe, simply out of sight of each other.

A piece of missed out and can't find it now.. but hope it still makes sense.

M