Well, I didn't take my Atenolol since I have come back to England, two days.. irregular heart beats is norm for me... Dr Google mentions far worse things, 'beta-blocker rebound phenomenon, also known as beta-blocker withdrawal syndrome' so many things could happen after 16 years on the medication.

So! Lanes yesterday morning into Heathrow, we arrived above about 5:50am and we were in a holding pattern until six, and then we, with others landed one by one... Always cool looking back down the landing runway at the on coming flights landing one by one and we make our way off the runway and towards the bays... 

We had taken off on time, more or less, easy boarding, priority boarding and is in economy boarded side by side...

This section I was in was about a hundred seats, and there were four of us only! 

Very empty long haul flight, very nice for us, and very private jet feel about it! 

Using the bathroom I never I had to line up, And always one of the four empty, also the largest toilets on a plane I have ever seen!! 

JFK is a nice airport to wander around pre boarding, nice and easy, security was quite a long time, still having to separate liquids and electrical items, some shoes still had to removed, but my sandals were okay ..

We were off the plane at Heathrow walked straight through security, and out into the arrivals hall, there was a lot of walking, somewhere... Maybe to get to security, because as I walked towards the central bus station I remember thinking I'd already walked miles and miles since getting off the plane, and having been on an overnight flight, lost five hours... Somewhere... That it was very hard going!! 

But I was at the bus station at 6:35 which was amazing, and just missed my bus! 

So coffee was the only answer, not sure if it was a heart or an onion on the surface, but it was good coffee.

I went and sat quite near the door to the bus stops, and just after seven my bus came past, I actually thought to wait inside, in case the driver was going to take a break, being so early... Then something told me to go check, my gut I guess... Glad I did, it was the 6:30 bus running late!!! 

So I arrived at 10:00 to Tony's, long old ride, many many stops, not at all, thankfully! But for £3, couldn't complain! 

So very tired though yesterday, the travelling of flight and bus, the missed hours .. when I got off the bus, my body was at 5am! I did get maybe 3 hours of broken sleep on the flight, and an hour yesterday afternoon, but ten o'clock last night I was out like a light.... Well, you know, lots of waking up.. but mainly just over and out!

I wrote this earlier the other day... So seems a bit added on! Rather than added to..

Life changes us; people, circumstances, traumas , change us.. I wonder when we realize we are not who we were..

I think I've said before about the different faces we show different people, not in a bad way, just how we are different to and with, different people .. 

And we can only really truly see our own faces.. but do we recognize the shift. . . The change, do we make different choices when we're different!

Is this why we probably have all thought differently about past situations as we change through our lives ..

I dreamt Monday evening, that I was lost, and my watch was broken.. strange dream, and a broken watch is quite meaningful... 

M.

If my life is going to mean anything, I have to live it myself.

Rick Riordan - Author