Yesterday was time for colacoa... And think today my opened toed furry slippers will hit the shoe cupboard and out will come the furry boots!

This morning I let the alarm pass and after tea in bed and a bit of a series I got up, opened the persiana in the living room to this outstanding vista.. I ran up to the terrace to take this photograph.. 

To find my neighbor already appreciating this ..

We're so lucky in so many ways.. it's views like this... And so many others in this beautiful part of the world I am so lucky to live in..

I know wherever you are, we are, in this world, we have these amazing sights.. even in closed in cities.. we look around and up and see amazing horizons around us.

Yesterday helping with painting a bathroom, out a ways from Alhaurín, surrounded by mountains, the sound of trees, a dog barking, the odd vehicle or bike.. 

Then the sound of bells through the windows, goats on the mountainside, bleating and chiming, their dogs playing their own chasing game amongst the herd.. 

Although there's much we wish would catch up with the rest of the world here, especially in Andalucia, I miss even what was here twenty years ago.. goats on the roads around here every week, the knife sharpening man on his bicycle playing on his pan flute, every week on our street along with others.. bread, fish, meat, clothes! 

And yesterday, brought me back to the real Spain.. could have sat back, in the lowering sun, glass of red, some small food, maybe not even music.. just listen to the world around me.. 

Asked what I want the other day.. It's hard to put into words.. and maybe this sounds boring but it's not.. it's just the basis, just the bottom line of it..

Wish I knew what each day would bring.. not the fine details as such but the big picture... The main parts that wouldn't change, the important parts.. 

It would still leave all the mystery of each day.. that's what I want.. that's all I want.

M.

I feel like one of the angels from City of angels movie.. standing watching the sun rise.. it's amazing, feel so lucky, despite stuff .. it is truly magical..

I am actually waiting for a hospital appointment, as per the norm way too early.. but had to drive a 45 minutes drive.. somehow it didn't take that long.. don't judge!

I've drunk nearly two litres of water.. 

Drive down felt sick and in agony for having done so. Think it's a waste of time.. but the sunrise.. if nothing else from this, this sunrise is definitely not a waste of time..

M.

Worse day of my life..

Today, this day, this date.. does not get better.

It truly is the worse day of my life.. To be told by the man who is your world that his days are numbered .. that memory that feeling, can't be erased.

Maybe it should, or could? lesson in severity. But so far every year now I relive it. 

I still have the awful thoughts I had on that day.

I sit here now, where I scattered Franco..  the sun still shines, the earth still turns and I wonder 'how dare it.'

M.

 

Friday morning picking up a colleague.. beautiful view of the low cloud cover over the Sierra de Mijas.. 

Looked better from further down the road but obviously couldn't take a photograph..

These two photographs are, very poor standard! And the cross light in the one above makes no sense, no sun coming in, the light emanates from the ceiling anyway, not the door way.. 

Anyways! My over active imagination seeing weird stuff! 

These are of my new lights! LED lights, they start down in the dining room and come up through the stairwell and ran out exactly on the wall above the living room door! As though perfectly measured! 

They look great! 

Easily pleased really aren't I! 

Had a good weekend, very good actually.

Saturday coffee in town, lunch in Benalmádena pueblo, Saturday evening down to La Cala and a live band which was really good.. at a great venue.. home about midnight before I turned back into my comfies outfit! 

Sunday, yesterday, coffee in the morning, lunch at a friend's with a lovely group of chicas, another coffee out and home..

Lights up and working, beautiful weather and wonderful conversations..

El fin de semana.. muy bueno..

Now another week, off today also, when I refilled my meds box I laughed to myself wondering what my world will be like by the last days meds in the box.. 

Who knows? No one knows.. least of all me.

It's a bad week, a sad week of a memory the 10th being the lowest point, day, of my entire life.

Yet I keep breathing and yes, laughing and hoping.. 

M.