You choose the life you live. If you don't like it, it's on you to change it because no one else is going to do it for you.

Kim Kiyosaki - Author and Speaker

This is so very true isn't it... 

I am the worse at just getting on with stuff, I keep on at things that don't work, because I .. I don't know, hope they might, think they might..

I also talk in riddles a lot, but then, after... Mmm twenty three years of Blogging.. I'm laughing out loud at the bar Rosa where I sit... I'm sure many of my readers have come and gone by now...

In this ever changing world in which we live in... You thought I was going to break into song then didn't you! huh! 

I'm going to have to speak into my phone, trying to see my screen with the sunlight and my sunglasses on is not working very well I shall fill in the commas the full stops and millions of exclamation marks!!! 

This morning I woke up at my friend K's apartment and went down to Bar Cruz, I had coffee with my old neighbor, neighbor being the keyword not the old then K. arrived S.

After coffees I went I went into the store I used to work in, a long time ago now it feels...  and picked up a set of friends keys to water his plants a couple of times while I am here, and he's away! Then I then went and collected some car keys because I'm a very lucky girl and I have a car to drive for two weeks..  I drove around the feria ground a few times before leaving the safety of that area for the open road, not having driven since October I was a little wary... but I had absolutely nothing to worry about...  it was as if I had driven yesterday.

I then had to drive down to the coast where I picked up my third and final set of keys of the day, to my friend's home where I am cat sitting for a week as of tomorrow..

I've returned to Alhaurín, parked and walked to Bar Rosa and I have just finished that meal above, boquerones fritos, salad y pan, and a small bear not bear a beer watching my phone misunderstand me! I think after my boquerones eating a small bear might be a step too far!

Anyway sitting here reminds me of the many times I have sat here since I first came to Alhaurín in 1988, and here at Bar Rosa is where we would go when Franco pick me up from the airport after work and before then, after any trip to the UK..  If I landed in the evening he would pull up and we would come here to have something to eat..

I was reminded on my journey back up from the coast a little of why I felt I couldn't be here, because as I drove up the mountain...  I said out loud to Franco "why?" and all the other thoughts in my head..

People often ask me why I left this place I love, I didn't want to be sad for the rest of my life, and although I certainly wasn't sad for 24 hours a day, I was sad a lot of many parts of each and every day after Franco died.

I just want to be able to be happy here, and not feel this sadness still, it still is an open wound, maybe it always will be, and that should be what I come to terms with, what I have to understand.

Just maybe in understanding that, is me able to accept it.

I will try and Blog everyday while I am away, I will take photos of places I have been taking photos off since 1988.

There was news that came through on my phone yesterday before I left,  a shooting in Fuengirola, two men dying, it was an Irish bar, after the football.. along the paseo marítimo, and here in Alhaurín same day, Saturday, someone was attacked inside their own kiosko!

Also there are two women in town working together, one snatches a bag or purse and the other takes it and runs..  so everyone seems to be very aware, keeping their handbags close.

I have now spoken a lot into my phone and I'm sure many of the words like beer and bear will not have come out correctly! I'm going to ask for the bill and go to Mercadona.

Okay, taken a while to decipher my own words, it still reads badly! But! I've Blogged! Sorry readers! 

Hasta mañana amigos! 

M.