Mathern, a village in Wales..

But first of course I better update on surgury.. 

Went in about 10:30 Monday morning, for my 11am admission, was a bit of a deja vu feel about it all, after last week, but I was signed in, checks done, signed all the forms and trollied off to the theatre about 12:45ish..

Every one very nice, felt very cared for and looked after... In the bit before the theatre, the prep room... They put in the cannula, BP arm band, the stickers and then an injection for something and the oxygen mask... The anesthesiatist said think of a happy place .. so I put myself on the boardwalk at Calahonda.. and knew no more .. 

I can't actually remember coming back around in the recovery room, but obviously I did, because they moved me back into my ward half an hour later... Was 4:30 then...

Reclined my chair and covered me up with a blanket.. where I snoozed!

I came home about 7pm and went to bed about an hour later.. slept sort of until 3am yesterday morning, then just laid in bed listening to a book until I got up about 9ish.

Baz took the day off to look after me, I wasn't allowed to be left alone for the first 24hrs...

And also no food for 24hrs after the surgery..

So last night about six I had something? Oh soup, I had cream of chicken soup... 

Yesterday I had a very very sore throat and speaking wasn't easy... 'Yeah yeah yeah!!' and a very painful abdomen area .. All to be expected.. 

Today tummy still hurts, but not as bad, and throat getting better.. A long as I don't talk too much!! 

I didn't get my report, and I didn't get a food plan.. So that's been worrying me a bit, winging it on the soft food I can eat, today had a rusk for breakfast and three hours later another one, with warm milk .. love those things! Then three hours later I had half a can of cream of mushroom soup, the other half three hours later! So four meals today, if you can call them meals! And a Complan just now, for some goodness! 

I guess I'll sort of repeat tomorrow, if I can't get hold of anyone to answer my question about what to eat!! 

I know it's soft foods for 72 after after the non food 24hrs .. 

So a good meal Saturday, although I have to admit I'll be a bit worried as the point of soft foods is that nothing hurts the site of the operation, for obvious reasons.

Anyways, I survived it! And I was scared, it's just not a good time of the year, I know remembering dates from past painful times doesn't help... 

But I'll never forget...

Last night although exhausted, I couldn't sleep! And after waking up at 3am yesterday morning and still seeing 2am this morning!! Made yesterday a very long day! Lols 

I watched a bit of TV, played a bit of solitaire, then listened to my book, I expected sleep .. instead I had sone weird hallucination! It was as though I was floating low near the ground, and all I could see was earth and rocks and faces there in... Was horrible, and my mind kept trying to see anything else, I was trying to think of something else to stop what I was seeing... Yet on and on I floated .. just earth and rocks and faces!! 

Then I slept, woke up, broke my glass, mopped that up, picked up glass! and couldn't sleep again!!

Tired today, but can't see sleep coming easy tonight..  its usually just lots of waking up and turning over like the ever turning kebab! Falling asleep is usually easy .. hate it when it's not.

All these photographs I took on November 5th 2018.. in Mathern where I was in a placement.. end of life care...

M.

Birds sing after a storm; why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?

Rose Kennedy