Four year memory on Facebook.. from today, 2021, Mijas Pueblo, it's like another lifetime.. So many lifetime's wrapped up in a being, how many do we get? That's a question we don't know, live each one with the greatest feelings, live each one as though it's our last.. 

Stay in the moment.. I spend so much of my time in the past, I can't help it.

It's not that I'm not happy now, I am... but it's that I was a different happy then. I felt different, I thought that was me.

And when our lives change because of others, we lose who we were, I still haven't found me yet? 

Does that ever happen.

Okay, this was a couple of days ago!

Went for a wonderful walk yesterday..

Quite a muddy walk! That wonderful smell of earth and mulch I missed so much.. lichen everywhere, beautiful.. 

I had on my waterproof walking boots, unfortunately, of course, only actually waterproof up to a certain point! And walking through an exceptionally deep lake, aka a puddle! The water unexpectedly came over the laces! Still, my feet were warm and soon so was the water that my boot-socks soaked up!

After I got home, actually a few hours later, it started raining! And today the sun is here, and the sky a beautiful soft blue.. 

Thoughts of Christmas bring me down, but a trip booked for home revives me...

Yesterday evening's meal although tasted very good, within half an hour wasn't good in my stomach, well, not stomach as such.. And it's still bad, I checked again, as I have before, Dr Google says that colorrectal surgery can trigger diverticular disease symptoms.. So I guess this will be off the menu, maybe leave it a longer time, I felt I was at last, nearly two months post surgery, feeling that I was getting better... 

Still some pain every day, but less than at first, obviously, but still pain none the less ..

Now really bad again.. fed up with it all!

M.

Music track today also! Styx, The Best of Times

We are all that we have seen and done