Below written by Peter Forster
Daily missive for Monday the 12th of February.
I worry
I will lose her
In the ‘putting away’
The packing and moving
From one place to another.
The pairing down
As expectations change
As other people move on
Lost lovers cling to bric-a-brac
As if it is a liferaft.
Holding on
Gets harder
As links break.
Mementoes look forlorn
As surroundings change.
Picture frames
Weather with age
Photographs fade
Those precious clothes
Folded neatly
In a bottom drawer
Too evocative of her
To let go
Too painful to look at.
Worried about mould
Mildew
The betrayal
Of throwing away.
The pain of loss
Is unrelenting
The gravitas of a life
Taken for granted.
The gravity
Of every situation
Demanding its toll
In a remorseless shedding
Of the past
One piece at a time.
A life dismantled
A reminder of mortality
The coming of darkness
The fear of pain
The loathing of religion
Its senseless, merciless
Boyhood grip.
When even yet
The lost child within
Cries out
In the hope
That we will meet again.
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I wrote in Peter's comments..
'Peter, you say just the right words at the right time, I am 'trying' to let go of things, that have a far greater hold on me than I care to acknowledge.. my kids said 'take photos, throw it all away'
But it's like I am throwing away a part of myself...'
M.
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