Oops catch up! When I last posted I was on the beach down at Cabopino on Sunday.. 

What did I do Saturday? Let me check my calendar! Okay! Met up with friends here in town, coffees chatting lunch! I remember now! 

Then Sunday with J. down at Cabopino most of the day, didn't get back until the evening, I was under the parasol all day, well, most of me... A group started playing in the mid afternoon which was nice, so a day of good conversation, lots of laughter and people watching.. followed by more laughing!! 

Yesterday, Monday, Torremolinos with the girls, K. and S., 

Went to The Tudor Rose I used to take Peter too.. which was why we went. On the approach no parking spaces, so I carried on past, around the two Picasso dancing girls roundabout, and back.. and a space right outside! Perfect!

We walked up and sat down, no electricity! She said only cold drinks and food at the moment.. We debated staying or leaving and I said out loud, 'Peter!! What are you doing to us?!' and the electric came back on! Again! Perfect!

After a light breakfast, my second of the day! We went to Ikea, where I tried and succeeded in not buying anything!! A very rare occurrence, but then, seriously! What was a going to do! Carry it back to England with me!! Noooo!

Then!! After items were purchased we were off to Casa las Flores! Hence the turtles in the top photograph, they have opened up the area around the raised flower beds and painted the fence; when I was last there I couldn't get close to see them! 

Night before last there was a fire in the Finca la Mota área in the evening and turned the sky a beautiful color... 

 Today, my last full day..

Coffee with T. and then my neighbor, then a wander around town.. made the mistake of (or made the most of), going into my favorite store, Bulee, only purchased two items! Well, one item is a twin set.. So sort of three items, for the price of two! I say, explaining myself to absolutely no body at all! 

Now I sit here at Bar Mori, Isa's café, a cup of té verde, writing my memoires.. 

M.

The only limits in our life are those we impose on ourselves.

Bob Proctor - 1934-2022 - Author and Speaker

More from Fridays trip to Málaga and the Botanical Gardens.. 

My photographs really do not do the place justice..

Stunning colors, some blooms fading already as the heat sets in.. 

The area above they use for weddings and we imagined how they would hold them there .. Then we began wedding planning! How, where, the best places there... And if our gardens... What we would do... 

Yep, three women dreaming as girls ...

Black bamboo, a couple of amazing bamboo forests here, green and black ... Amazing to walk through...

Many of the pools and streams had thousands of tadpoles in! The water was alive with them! And in this one a turtle or two!

This building, a small museum, below, looked new but was very very old... Gorgeous.. 

So many pathways, so much to see, beautiful.. we'll be back! 

Hopefully, again and again, it's so close! Forty minutes from here really, that's all... 

Or again bus and coach, easy...

M.

Go as far as you can see. When you get there you will see how you can go farther.

Thomas Carlyle - 1795-1881 - British Historian-Essayist-Philosopher-Mathematician-Teacher

Above Thursday evening, back in Alhaurín... 

Beautiful sunsets.. memories abound.. 

Yesterday, Friday 13th June, the Botanical Gardens of Málaga.. all these years meaning to visit.. never too late! 

We got the fast bus from Alhaurín to Málaga bus station, us three girls, stopped for breakfast at a bar near the bus station.. it was busy but we nabbed a table and three chairs..

The botanical gardens on built above Málaga, above the A45 to Cordoba..

It is about 13 minutes from the hospital.. There really are no excuses for not going over these decades!! 

The bus from here is fast, and cheap, and the bus from Málaga bus station took about half an hour, and cost 1.40€ very cheap... 

We had coffees, twice, and a little food from the cafe on site, was clean and well stocked.. the many bathrooms were all clean..

Sorry, laughing to myself, I'm giving a review here!! I leave it to Google maps for that! 

We walked, and walked.. remember the gardens are on the side of a mountain! Was easy and okay to walk, but maybe not when it gets hotter.. we didn't get everywhere, saving a little for next time.. and cooler weather..

We imagined, different times of the year everything would be different, of course, like any garden.. ever changing, ever growing.. 

So incredibly beautiful, and the air, although right next to the A45, and you could hear it.. the air amongst the trees was beautiful.. refreshing..

The house! Stunning! I'll put a link here to the Botanical Gardens of Málaga.

Some photographs today, more in the morning.. 

Two nights ago I dreamt about many holes in the road ahead of me...

Dreams about holes in the road often symbolize life's challenges and obstacles, suggesting the need for caution and perseverance. The holes can represent unexpected difficulties or situations that require careful navigation. It may also reflect a sense of being lost or facing uncertainty in one's life. 

Interesting eh! Sorry dream out of context, but I'd already left this here from yesterday morning.. and let's be honest, much of life is out of context!

So yesterday! 

After our long wonderful day in Málaga, I had a brief reprieve and then off to Bar Monika at the other end of town, my old end, so to speak! 

After a glass of wine and the world's largest burger to share! Would not, could not be eaten alone, and still both left some!

A good laugh, good conversation and in my old local.. 

My walk back, still light, about 9pm, back the way I walked, we walked, too many times to count.. was beautiful and sad..

To live here nineteen years, and now not, to feel my heart cry, bleed.. It hurts.. still, how long for? Always...

And back once more at K.s... 

M.

You were born with the ability to change someone's life, don't ever waste it.

Dale Partridge - Author

Yesterday's walk back from Cabopino, much humidity

And along the beach much much seaweed!! 

Piling up all along here.. sand is missing and rocks aplenty.. 

This used to be nice to sunbathe on, not too wide, and never too busy.. 

More rock puddles now and sea urchins! 

My temporary fur baby.. She's so beautiful, so loving and last night kept very tight to me, all night.. 

This was around midnight.. 

The thunder and flashings of lightening drew me up to the terrace, I watched nature's amazing light display..

Photographs were difficult to capture and videos a bit hit and miss!

I love these Spanish storms.. spectacular!

Stayed up there a long while until the rain began hammering down, then I thought I better get back in, and continue with Lady Chatterley's Lover, on TV..

Feel so sorry for J.'s mom, using her Netflix account, I'm completely trashing it!! 

Today I drove down to the market to meet a friend for coffee, I parked as directed by the attendants and walked off to the bar in the Carrefour nearby.

After coffees I went for a meander around the market, and it was only when I got to the very end, the top end... I walked back into the carpark area from there... And realized, I have absolutely no idea where the car is!!

I walked up and down like a numpty, both exist lanes full of people trying to get out by car, and after a quarter of an hour I gave up! 

When I go back, I'll walk up to the BBVA bank, and try to retrace my steps from there...

And, the market will be emptier by then, it closes at 14:00, it's not closed yet... But I've walked into La Cala and have had some pizza and Aquarius drink.. 

Then I'll walk the boardwalk for a while..

Fingers crossed enough cars will have left and the car will show up for me!! 

Never lost a car before!! I think ours had a small bit of reflective tape on the aerial... Franco was always losing the car! He was allowed to!

Update! Walked a long way down the boardwalk, about as far as Miraflores.. then I walked back to the feria ground... The back way, the main road way... Still stalls up, mostly being packed away, but still seemed busy, cars were thinning out... I was looking for my car .. before, in the totally wrong place, it was up against a barrier?? 

I do not remember that, I guess being distracted by the .. everything else!!

M.

You choose the life you live. If you don't like it, it's on you to change it because no one else is going to do it for you.

Kim Kiyosaki - Author and Speaker

Today lunch with J., but first I parked down at El Zoco, first visited in 1989, it can't have been there long, talking to our neighbor from Calipso.. She remembers when her and her husband bought the apartment and there was no El Zoco.. just an olive grove there ..

I don't think it would have been there that long then... Thirty six years since I first visited there, for restaurant, for supermarket for the bars... 

I did the tourists thing and took plenty of photographs, not many people about, and lots of places closed, or closed up.. Seems sad there.. 

I walked from the car towards Paco's bar, that I thought had closed, but saw it open, and then him coming out with coffees, and also in that moment is when I saw our neighbor, and she saw me! And shouted! Was wonderful! So good to see her.. Just like old times..

She was sat with a lady who used to own the Almond Tree with her husband... Before the Sullivan's were there... I knew the lady also, from work... 

I'd popped into the office and saw the lady who works there, for the apartments.. It was her birthday! 

Good to see her also..

Then!! Off to 'work' and we went for lunch, I tried not to pull forward too much, or faceup! So difficult not just do what I did... 

Had a lovely lunch as always, time went too quickly.. I miss her... 

More tomorrow..

M.

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will create the fact.

William James - 1842-1910 - Philosopher and Psychologist

Today! This morning a trip up to Alhaurín for drinks with the girls.. woke to a sprinkling of dirty rain, and on the drive through the mountains a few drops... But nothing much and dry within moments..

Two coffees and a té verde later... a quick walk around town and down to Fuengirola, parking in my usual spot, the Sohail end... 

Now in Bar Luis, of course, always, why change what isn't broke.. like I just said on my Insta .. until either their doors close, or mine!

Avocado y olive oil on brown toastado... A Nestea..  and full healthy tum! I say laughing.. should be healthy! For a healthy person!! 

Something we noticed yesterday in a particular British bar in La Cala..  half empty when we left.. shootings tend to have that effect on places I guess! 

I'll not post yet! Day still in full swing!

After Luis's I came off the paseo marítimo and walked straight down and through Las Rampas, Dunnes is still open, the real estate agent where we rented the apartment from is closed, Snr Lorenzo has been gone from there many years.. signs on the window say 'Been in business over twenty years', but that business is no more... Just the gates and steps down to the tower we lived in for six months, seems another lifetime ago..

The tattoo place I got my angel done, April 1st, 2003.. that's gone.. most of the bars, clothes shops, other businesses here above in Las Rampas have gone.. it looks so sad.. the day earlier wasn't too bright then either, adding to the overall look of gloom and despair.. at that time it was 85% humidity, the air was bad.. 

Sun came up about 3pm.. brighten our day..

So, okay! I walked a long stretch of the main high streets through Fuengirola.. up one road, down the other... Past where the fish market was, opposite the train station and the mermaids roundabout.. past my favorite tattoo place.. up to where the horses roundabout is and turned right... Left at the crossroads and along as far as Anthony's jewelry store, and back... Stopped in a place and bought a tea cup!?! One for fresh tea! I don't know why?? And when I went to wash it earlier, it actually has Fuengirola written on!! Oh dear! Shaking and hanging my head now! Really!?!

Then! I carried on along past the church, thought I'd have a coffee where we, the boys and I used to have chicken sandwiches.. it's gone! It looks gone for a long while, because two stores are there, both look old, closed, and run down! How long ago did the beautiful restaurant close?

So, back through a small cut-thru, where a long long time ago two gypsy girls snatched some pesata notes from my wallet, and we grabbed them back and upset their tray of roses! 

Out onto the main road by the wonderful, thankfully still open, pastelería.. filled with beautiful cakes and aromas of them.. 

Back and along past the old ayuntamiento, (town hall), and police station and down to the car..

Drove back to La Cala the back way, like I was going home.. why does life hurt? 

Came home here instead... And the fur baby and I cwtched a while.. 

She is so loving.. 

M.

“Don’t be afraid. There are exquisite things in store for you. This is merely the beginning.”

Oscar Wilde - The Picture of Dorian Gray

Day ?? Forgotten.. Mmm and today's quote? Pop down, have a look! I'm already on day four, I guess!

I drove down to the feria ground and parked up, walked down to the boardwalk and walk along past the old fishing houses... Then I realized I had forgotten my beach towel, so walked back to the feria ground, a whole new different way I had never walked before, even in thirty-seven years.. So, that was nice, and walking back, I chose another path, I had also never, ever taken... In retrospect, the paths were probably never there that long ago... but still, never too late to take a new path is there...

I met up with my friend down near Reggie's Bar.. It's becoming my local, very fast! And one I could become accustomed too! 

Just nice, relaxing, good vibes.. and I had 00 beer, of course, driving... 

After drinks here we tootled off to the Jubilados Bar! 

And I'm only... BRB.. 37 days and 20 hours away from it!! So says my Countdown, been on my phone for how long? Four years is it? Wow that time sped by... Better make up for lost time!! 

Both photographs above taken from that bar... I had paella, cooking outside there on a huge paella hot plate, and fresh... Wonderful..

G. had fish! 

That plate filled the whole width of the table!! It was massive!! Towards the end I was asked to eat some too!! Easily enough for two! Maybe with berenjena y miel... Mmm beautiful...

After lunch ... Oh! I had flan! Of course! Not had flan for a while... So would have been rude not to!

Tootled off! (Used earlier), that's a word I either have never used or hardly ever heard except in old books.. I've been listening to some Poirot Podcasts to help me sleep? Maybe there? Subconsciously... That's worrying!!

After lunch, walked back to our respective cars and I came home... Relaxed a while on the terrace, but too hot to sit in the sun, so shade it was.. 

M.

"Life is four days, and three have already passed. Damn, let's not be here in a bad mood, let's be here in a good mood, let's love each other. Let's not hate each other, because hate doesn't get us anywhere, only to bad things."

PAU DONES

Day Four:

Yesterday I drove up to Alhaurín and coffees with the girls, tea with my neighbor, and shopping from Mercadona! 

Back down here afterwards and a walk along the boardwalk at La Cala and home.

I unfortunately had another of those damn visual migraine disturbances, things .. 

I had my dinner on the terrace and came down and was watching TV... It's very bright behind the TV with the wall nearly all window, lots of light and reflection? I looked at my phone and saw an image.. trying to work out still how to describe what 'it' looks like .. a kaleidoscope is a good way? Maybe.. anyways I thought maybe it was just a reverse image type of thing, you know when you look at something and then at another surface and you see the negative sort of thing? 

But soon I realized it wasn't, that it was the damn visual thing... 

So I went downstairs, darker down there and watched TV down there until I went to sleep.. about one am! And then couldn't stay asleep!

As if I haven't enough this eye thing worries me! And I think stress is making it happen, get such a weird feeling in my head afterwards!! Bloody hell!! Enough already!! 

Walking along to Luna Beach today from work I didn't look at the sea at all, I was worried about glare and reflections and setting it off again!! 

Today! Day Five:

Drove down to Calahonda, popped into work, of course, then to get a bottle of Aquarius, which I can't find in England and on Amazon is about 50 pounds to import!! 

Well, that's a surprise I've just gone to have a look... I've moved the letters about a bit, incase of copyright? 

WoW only 14:99 now for 1.5 litres, that has come down! Although 45:00 pounds for 8 cans is still a bit steep!! 

I paid a euro today for my 1.5 litre bottle... It's unbeatable, it's not fizzy, it's full of things to hydrate, to give you energy without any bad things.. 

I digress!! Lols of course! Then, I walked to Luna Mar beach, paid €7 for a beach bed.. not bad, I used to pay €7 when I working at the tabacs donkeys years ago!!

I did manage about three hours, before walking back to work, and having lunch in the Espresso Bar next door... Always great there on a Saturday afternoon, Ladies lunch! Big long table and about ten? No more like 15 or 20 girls, they're all such a laugh, it's great, even just being on the periphery, you're still included and drawn in... Then J. or C. are singing.. shots flowing... It's just great, and of course, I know them all now... Customers.. friends...

Then I was back in the car, La Cala, and parked in the feria ground, walked to the paseo marítimo and along for a while, then back to the car and home..

Not feeling 100% very tired, and maybe eaten a few things that don't agree..

Since I've been here I've eaten salad every day, one of my 'not to eat' foods, because of the chronic gastritis.. but I have so many 'not to eat' foods I've decided to try to reintroduce some of them... I mean seriously, salad! Fresh food, it's good for us!! Ha! Or not! I've also eaten a bit of fruit, which is also not allowed, just decided what the hell and want to eat healthily, like I used to!! So now I'm paying for it!

Okay, more than long enough on my phone, I'm going to start to put limits on it! 

I've been spending hours sometimes, on Duolingo and mind games .. 

Okay!! Lift up my mind... Look where I am!! 

M.

You will either step forward into growth or back into safety.

Abraham Maslow - 1908-1970 - Psychologist

Day Three:

Yesterday I got a cab down to La Cala, J. got a bus and we had lunch at a chiringuito.

Not a liquid lunch! But this wasu Mojito.. mmm very nice! 

I had chicken a la plancha y patatas fritas.. We then walked along to a bar I hadn't been in before, a Reggae bar right at the end of the beach, where the paseo ends and it's just sand and rocks..

I had a G&T, Larios, por su puesto.. J. a wine.. we sat and talked and laughed in the sunshine.. a man at a nearby table got up and leaving his glasses on the table went to the bar.. a little while later I noticed someone go up to the table and sit! I said in Spanish and English excuse me there's someone sitting there and he turned around and said yes it's me! so funny J. and I were hysterical!  another man at another table nearby burst out laughing, I looked at him and he said no no! it's very good that you care about other people like that! it was so funny!

Then after a little while a girl asked if she could sit at the table with us, there were still three empty chairs and I said yes of course, as long as you don't mind some rather raucous conversation and she said no not at all, that she would enjoy that very much! Five minutes later a man sat down her partner, and then another ten minutes later his friend joined them, joined us, so there were five of us... we were just talking to each other, like old friends quote quickly..

I have to say though something strange did happen she said to her fella that she wanted a drink, she only had a small amount of drink left in her glass, and he said well you know where the bar is! and she threw what was left of her drink at him! his face his chest! He was covered, amazing how such a small amount of fluid can go so far! so he was left sticky, it was cava I think...  and he went and had a quick shower from the shower on the beach..

 There had been a very awkward moment, a strange moment, but there was quick recovery on all parts... and we had a great amount of time with them talking, it was really nice then they left, and then us..

I went on the exercise equipment, kind of had an idea J. was taking photographs, didn't expect to see them on Facebook which is fine! Also by then I had had another G&T..  we made our way to the taxi rank said our goodbyes and both got in separate tax's..

Really good day... 

M.

Kiss slowly, laugh insanely, live truly and forgive quickly.

Paulo Coelho - Author

Arh... Paulo Coelho... 

Day two:

Trip up into the Campo to water friends plants.. beautiful drive, relaxing, could go fast if I wanted to! With a large truck ahead of me... But I'm in no hurry and took the time to enjoy the ride..

Then popped into a chino store in Coín, bought what I wanted and back to the car, then onto my old local Aldi store.. Got nearly everything I needed, except what was actually on my mental list!

Then down to the coast and La Cala de Mijas.. moved in, and after a cup of coffee back on the road and the main carretera and to my old store... Hugs hellos and kisses from my friends.. 

I actually got the last few things I needed for while I'm here, thankfully! 

Now, sitting here in La Cala, fert in the sand... Sun on my back and a zero zero beer on the table! Car ride to get home! 

The Mediterranean sea is calm, the sky is... That Spanish blue, perfect in it's color and reminiscent of all time lived here, and holibobs before and forever after... It's the blue of ceramics and window frames, of memories.. 

Can I pause here? Not on my Blog, just time.

M.

Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there's love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.

Ella Fitzgerald - 1917-1996 - Singer

You choose the life you live. If you don't like it, it's on you to change it because no one else is going to do it for you.

Kim Kiyosaki - Author and Speaker

This is so very true isn't it... 

I am the worse at just getting on with stuff, I keep on at things that don't work, because I .. I don't know, hope they might, think they might..

I also talk in riddles a lot, but then, after... Mmm twenty three years of Blogging.. I'm laughing out loud at the bar Rosa where I sit... I'm sure many of my readers have come and gone by now...

In this ever changing world in which we live in... You thought I was going to break into song then didn't you! huh! 

I'm going to have to speak into my phone, trying to see my screen with the sunlight and my sunglasses on is not working very well I shall fill in the commas the full stops and millions of exclamation marks!!! 

This morning I woke up at my friend K's apartment and went down to Bar Cruz, I had coffee with my old neighbor, neighbor being the keyword not the old then K. arrived S.

After coffees I went I went into the store I used to work in, a long time ago now it feels...  and picked up a set of friends keys to water his plants a couple of times while I am here, and he's away! Then I then went and collected some car keys because I'm a very lucky girl and I have a car to drive for two weeks..  I drove around the feria ground a few times before leaving the safety of that area for the open road, not having driven since October I was a little wary... but I had absolutely nothing to worry about...  it was as if I had driven yesterday.

I then had to drive down to the coast where I picked up my third and final set of keys of the day, to my friend's home where I am cat sitting for a week as of tomorrow..

I've returned to Alhaurín, parked and walked to Bar Rosa and I have just finished that meal above, boquerones fritos, salad y pan, and a small bear not bear a beer watching my phone misunderstand me! I think after my boquerones eating a small bear might be a step too far!

Anyway sitting here reminds me of the many times I have sat here since I first came to Alhaurín in 1988, and here at Bar Rosa is where we would go when Franco pick me up from the airport after work and before then, after any trip to the UK..  If I landed in the evening he would pull up and we would come here to have something to eat..

I was reminded on my journey back up from the coast a little of why I felt I couldn't be here, because as I drove up the mountain...  I said out loud to Franco "why?" and all the other thoughts in my head..

People often ask me why I left this place I love, I didn't want to be sad for the rest of my life, and although I certainly wasn't sad for 24 hours a day, I was sad a lot of many parts of each and every day after Franco died.

I just want to be able to be happy here, and not feel this sadness still, it still is an open wound, maybe it always will be, and that should be what I come to terms with, what I have to understand.

Just maybe in understanding that, is me able to accept it.

I will try and Blog everyday while I am away, I will take photos of places I have been taking photos off since 1988.

There was news that came through on my phone yesterday before I left,  a shooting in Fuengirola, two men dying, it was an Irish bar, after the football.. along the paseo marítimo, and here in Alhaurín same day, Saturday, someone was attacked inside their own kiosko!

Also there are two women in town working together, one snatches a bag or purse and the other takes it and runs..  so everyone seems to be very aware, keeping their handbags close.

I have now spoken a lot into my phone and I'm sure many of the words like beer and bear will not have come out correctly! I'm going to ask for the bill and go to Mercadona.

Okay, taken a while to decipher my own words, it still reads badly! But! I've Blogged! Sorry readers! 

Hasta mañana amigos! 

M.

Can you tell from the quotes I'm getting through Doctor Who! There's huge amounts I've missed over the .. decades... 

Okay, catch up on the colonoscopy! Got my results today in a phone call from the hospital.. two of the polyps were Hyperplastic type, skin tag type, and the third an adanoma type, it was all okay, but these if left to grow possible can be very bad.  But it wasn't, so all good! 

I am still awaiting news of when I'm going to have the fourth and largest removed, under general anesthetic, as too big to do during a regular colonoscopy.

What's been happening! 

Went to town with the peanuts, as I call them, on Tuesday... It is so difficult not buying everything they look at!! Those eyes!! That longing gaze when they stare at something they want... Phew pulls on the heartstrings that's forsure!!

Went to a huge park on Monday morning, Attenborough park... Walked about eight miles.. stopped at Beeston Marina for some lunch, just a bacon roll and a coffee, another beautiful day... Up until last couple of days it really has been wall to wall sunshine bar maybe two days? Three max, since I came back from Spain in March... Off again Monday!! Whoop whoop.. can't wait... Packed and ready to go..

I want to look at all my photographs over the decades, stop pause and remember moments, why can't I?? Why does it hurt so much, why bring me to tears when I do... 

I want to enjoy them, the moments the remembering, the amazing time of my life... Why does remembering hurt so much...

M.

Things end, That's all

Everything ends, And it's always sad

But everything begins again too,

And that's always happy, Be happy

Doctor Who

I must have blogged this already? Below I mean, I wrote it in 2023.. I was in my aunt's house.. 

'Nothing here has changed... In her house..

It's a time warp I will forever remember.. and always wish I could step back into

Sorry I feel sad.. I am thinking if I leave it too long again.. there won't be a next time here.'

I always feel this loss when I leave her, and I've booked a visit to her again now... If I had a TARDIS I'd be over every day for a cup of tea..

Every single day.. No matter what.

Last night in a half sleep moment I knew Pippa had come into the bedroom, I could hear her paws and then the weight of her as she jumped onto my bed and moved up towards me .. then her cold nose and whiskers tickling my face as she checked my breathing... As she used to do! Then I started to wake more and said 'Pippa! And laughed and woke myself up completely.. then realized she wasn't there, and it was only .. what? A dream? A visit from my puppy love? Who knows, I believe the latter.. 

Went to my Lockup this morning, collected a few summer things, and buried my head in my clothes and material stuff there... Breathing in the smell of my old home, breathing in memories and feelings... And missings... I know its not a word, missings, but it's my word.. I'll have to save something and keep it in an airless bag, to open, rarely, to keep forever... With my missings... 

The reason for my lateness in posting the last post and why I said I was distracted, was because of worries.. and a silly accident, sort of thing.. actually..

The weekend after the London trip, the Saturday, two weeks ago now already..  I had to have a colonoscopy, I've just checked as I actually thought I had written this down, but it's not anywhere? I had sent of the poop test thingy we all get to check for bowel cancer, and within a couple of days of sending it, received a letter for an appointment phone call, followed swiftly by the colonoscopy.. they removed three polyps, and saw the Diverticular and a small area from an internal hemorrhoid, in the area of the Diverticular, which may have bleed causing the test to come back positive.

There was another polyp which needs to come out, but it couldn't be done then, too big and in an awkward area. So I have to have that delt with. I have a telephone appointment date, where I'll learn what and when. 

I'm in Spain what happens, and then a small window of opportunity before I'm off again to my aunts .. 

So apologies for being a bit out of my head, or out of my mind! Been a lot going on.. and bad sleep at night leading to being (even more) tired during the day! 

Oh the accident! So it's the Thursday before the colonoscopy on the Saturday, I've started the fibre-free diet, haven't had to do that before, rice or potatoes, chicken or white fish, no milk in drinks.. very limited, very hungry! 

Anyways!! So I'm walking downstairs and before I knew it I was flying! Only not very well, I used my right ankle to turn awkwardly as I landed, that sent me into a right-handed spin so I used my head to stop me, hitting a coat hook on the dining room door and landing badly on my right side in the dining room! 

I stayed there a while, did a self assessment! Knew nothing was broken, got up and wobbled into the living room and sat down, sort of was going to leave it at that, just take it easy, you know, it's just a headache, it'll be okay... But I got up to get a cup of tea after a couple of minutes, and saw the lump on my head! Nice big already bruising lump! So I messaged Barry, he came home from work, had ordered me to call 111, they got a hospital paramedic to call me, and was told to come to hospital, it's a head injury and I had to go.. So we got a cab, and spent from about 11am to 4pm in hospital.. I sprained my right ankle, and was given information about the head injury and what to look out for, oh, and to stay awake! 

Filling out the preliminary forms on Saturday in City hospital, had to mention I'd only just been in the Queen's Med! And why!

Wasn't expecting that!

I have to say though also, I couldn't have had better care in either hospitals, Saturday, a team of four caring, considerate and knowledgeable people, the specialist was Spanish, everything explained throughout.. 

And on Thursday, under extreme pressures in A&E, everyone was happy caring and doing their best at all times... Despite a woman kicking off, literally, headbutting the screen, walls, doors, swearing and shouting, people complaining, a prisoner with his two guards! A couple of people who were challenged for different reasons, but both kept getting up and trying to get out, wandering around.. 

It's been a other day since I wrote earlier here... Last night's dream was on and off trains and two funerals! So the excitement goes on!

M.

That's what fear can whip people into. You make people afraid enough, of something completely manufactured. And you can drive them to become murderers. Cold blooded murderers.

Lisa Kudro 

Need to catch up, a lot, mind been distracted so apologies, for my lateness! 

And I wrote this a week ago!!! Posting now!

When heading down to London the weekend before last, sat facing thr wrong way, if there even is a wrong way? Sat in reverse? 

Anyways, I thought to myself as I watched the world pass by quickly and seeing where we'd been, not where we were headed, and it made me think philosophically.. We have to see where we've been to see where we're going in life...

And then London! The big smoke! Lols! 

I hadn't been on the underground for years, used to very used to hopping on and off different lines, managed myself around the London Underground without a worry..

But this time I thought!! Gulp! Where what how! 

Well it's easier to pay for one thing, phone tap to get through the barriers, phone tap to get out when at destination, and bobs your uncle! 

I also, just walked it, didn't hesitate, read signs and names with quickness and ease, with barely a heartbeat of wavering.. 

Like riding a bike! Or better, as I don't do bike riding easily, at all! 

Met up with cousin T. was wonderful, and at last met someone the whole family and heard of and never seen, bar one other... I am now officially honoured! So met two friends of T., had a great afternoon and evening and morning! Before heading back up north, retracing steps taken before was even easier! 

Last time at St Pancras was with mom, when we went to Paris.. 2009, heads-up! TIME GOES FASTER THAN WE REALIZE!

Okay, sorry for saying that so loudly, but I think we all forget that small simple fact!

Weird dreams last night! I was getting shot at in one, quite a blockbuster of a dream, five of us at the beginning fleeing some people!?? Only two of us left at the end.

Then my friend P. was flying a helicopter in another, we were flying way too high, she landed us and then I was slow dancing! Next memorable dream, the driver had to drag me into a car that was way too low and awkward to get into, very boxy, almost Minecraft game car!

We came off the road on a sharp right-hand bend, flew off the cliff, landed on a lake and managed, luckily to stop on the shore! Then we walked to a restaurant there and we're greeted by Harry Potter characters!

All very challenging dreams and situations! Except maybe the dancing bit?

No wonder I feel tired! I say laughing! 

I need to dig hard today to get that 'Happy' out... Lols.. feeling well stuck in my little quagmire of blahness last few days

M.

Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

Joshua J. Marine - Magician-Author-Lecturer