Further in; further up!

Trip to the village con mi amiga!

Small real Spain.. It is off the beaten track, surrounded by acres and acres of olive trees... so many you can smell the olive oil driving through. Its just over two hours drive, and the roads here are good, so a good quick journey. I drove, we made good time, the two dogs in the back behaved very well, and slept most of the way.

Reaching my friends house, we unpacked the car and went in, the key needed a bit of jigging! But once in all good to go!

I had a quick sweep around, and mi amiga opened windows and doors..

The beautiful lake air rushing in through the door and and causing eddies as I swept!

The village is - one helluva big lake, man-made, two bars one plaza.. one tiny store.. it has the darkest skies and the most beautiful bright stars..

Milky way included.

We walked the dogs..

We ate.. laughed, cried... and drank coffee!

On the first evening we walked down to the bar and for every beer a huge plate of tapas arrived! More a ration than a tapa!

Two friends arrived and joined us... A really great evening, a small village, with a handful of British residents, everyone welcomed into the arms of the local people.. I saw how my friend had been missed, and checked on her.. and I felt included and welcomed in not just as a temporary visitor but as new friend.

After the bar.. we went to get the boys (the dogs!), and walked to the lake.. it was so dark, and I mean dark, no light bleed. You actually could not see anything! It was the first time I have really seen the Milky Way..

I didn't want to leave! I could have laid down and just watched the skies.. it was around one in the morning by then and the Perseid Meteor shower at its best.. apparently.. We walked to the waters edge, we stood.. we saw one brilliant amazing shooting meteor enter our earth's atmosphere and light and burn briefly... absolutely wonderful! Couldn't have been better!

The next day we went to a neighbouring town and had coffee's... it was late morning, very quiet and very very hot!

That evening a repeat of the one before, but not so late and no lake-side walk! The next and final day, we went for lunch in the nearby town this time, more people about, a lively thriving town, very few of us foreigners.. in fact I can't be certain but I don't think I heard another British accent apart from our own!

Now, a couple of funny things... my friend and I do laugh, a lot, see the same funny side of things... the latter thing I will tell you was the funniest, this first was just funny! I pulled up by the kerb and she pulled up my hand-brake! She drives a right-hand drive and although she had no steering wheel.. I pulled up and she pulled up the hand-brake!

You had to be there? Well... we laughed! Now, the next thing... you really don't need to have been there!

When we arrived she turned the water on, ours are all accessible at the front of our houses... just how it is here in Spain... The water was a bit thin on the ground so to speak, a mere dribble... we managed to flush the loo a couple of times, and do a wash in the machine... We didn't manage to brush our teeth with tap water so had to use bottled water and just get on with it, so to speak.

In the morning, no improvement, spoke to friends, learnt the water had been low... there is a tank which is filled by truck and used by the residents... and that is the supply for the whole village! We were at the top of the road too.. so made even more sense there was even less up there..

Anyways, friends brought up a couple of bottles of water, two by five litres and we made do with them, again, as best we could, didn't go short on coffee, just no flushing and no showers!!

The day we were leaving.. nothing, nada, nowt! She asked me to switch off the water anyway, before we left, as we all do when we're away, I opened up the front, looked at the gauge and the tap, turned the tap opposite to the way it was... and.... the gauge started to turn, the meter... it turned fast and wonder of wonder I could hear the magical sound of water gushing through the pipes from there into the house!!! I called out my friends name... sort of slowly... she thought maybe it was broken or a dog had got out... I walked in and said... "water!!! there is water....

Oh em geeeeeeeee!!! We laughed so much it hurt, our faces our throats... stomachs!!! Those two nights and three days!!! We had water all along... We literally laughed till we cried.

We flushed the loo... (just don't ask.) We washed up, we hosed down the back yard... watered plants... and flushed the loo again!!!

So, next time we visit, I am in charge of the water meter!

So so funny, driving home we just randomly kept on remembering and laughing till we cried again and again...

What else has been occurring???

I have applied and am waiting for my new passport.. its on its way, from the opening of my info and them saying they were starting the process to a message to say finished and on its way was six days!

I've food shopped, drank copious amounts of coffee... I am eating well, maybe too well!!

Its been wonderful being in close proximity to my neighbors dogs, although, when entering my house now I automatically look down and feel I have to be careful Pip isn't close to the door...Pip or any dog, just a feeling of a dog being close to me now... reading on the terrace yesterday a movement caught my eye, and I thought it was her...

I am growing thyme! Yes thyme can be grown, it can't be turned back or moved forward, but it can be grown! Ha.. funny!!

I planted the seeds nearly six weeks ago and it has taken five weeks for any growth at all! When they are big enough to plant out I am planting in the crevices in the mountain wall behind my house, its a very hardy plant and requires very little water, once established... but, at this rate, not sure they'll make it before I head off back to work again, can't plant seedlings this small and no way would they survive the heat without water like this!

We're all being bitten by little somethings, no mosquitoes, I really don't know what they are, because none of us can actually catch whatever it is that's doing the biting!!

Enough already? Okay, that'll do then; it is not that I don't think to blog, I just can't my head round to it.. I haven't been sleeping well, the heat to start with, now I have AC in the bedroom that helps immensely, but sleep is a thing of mystery.. elusive, an enigma... We wrestle with it and lose the battle constantly...

I did my yearly modules for work, and that night I slept better, maybe my brain enjoyed being active that little bit more! So what then? Learn something every day... every day most certainly is learning... doing Spain every day again now... needs to be a habit...

Every evening, well, most evening then, myself and a couple of neighbors gather on our terraces and have a cup of tea... how very civilized! But its nice, its companionable.. We chat, we listen, we watch the sun set over the beautiful country we call home..

TTFN

Marian

"It's our living that counts; all the years that have past us by when we didn't realize how very important they were...

...whichever our decisions in life, some things we've done will feel wrong and others right, because there is no wrong or right, there is just trying to do the best we can."

Practice Practice Practice

That's what 'they' say, so Blogging again immediately afterward last one..

Sun came out and dried up all the rain.. lols you are now thinking incy wincy spider climbed the pipe again!

Maybe she did!

Maybe she didn't!

Either way the storm is still here, Thor still rolling his balls down the great bowling alley in the skies above.. wind moving anything not tied down around all over the place.. humidity has now joined the party and it sounds amazing!

Not going in, I'm enjoying the wild weather.. it's fine...

The thunder is an almost constant sound.. very eerie...

Expecting something cataclismic!

And the short video I took earlier.. funny!

The sun comes out, the thunder rolls from mountain to mountain..

I love a storm.. absolutely love a good storm! I'm sure my heart's beating faster ...  Lols

Lols okay, rambling now for no good reason!

Yesterday! Had Sunday lunch in town with a good friend.. the full Brit Sunday lunch, and very good it was too! I went to the Sunday market early, for a wander about, not to buy, just for a good look and coffee.. a good day.

Today was renew my passport day.. it runs out, as of now! 

And now awaiting a something or other! It's definitely coming back with avengeance!

TTFN

Marian

Thunder in the Guadalhorce vally

Arhhh... New interface.. this is doing my head in, why can't 'they' leave things alone, nothing wrong with the way it was! Now it's all gone pants! That's the politest way I can put it!

Working on a phone the update of which has made it virtually impossible to use normally, now add this critical change to Blogger..

Blogging should be a pleasure, I love writing, but this is so damn annoying!

The top photograph was sunset here the other night..

And this one above Ardales lake..  of course..

I went up with a neighbor the other morning, it  was so nice.. we chatted and walked around the loop, had coffee and cake, at the kiosk .. a really great morning.

Now I am sat on the terrace to all intents and purposes looking like a sunbather! As the thunder has banged on for two hours.. and now the rain is falling.. 

I am still here, with sunglasses on.. appreciating the coolness.. it's... 30°C as the large rain drops are now cooling the terrace floor..

Wow, it's pouring now.. beautiful cool thirst quenching rain..  it smells so good.. the temptation to stand in it is great! But summer rain can be filthy, sand from the deserts.. and just dusty!! 

Scratched that last sentence.. I have just stood and danced in that beautiful rain.. and now it's passed and the terrace is already nearly dry... The sun out.. wonderful!

It is outstandingly good.

TTFN

Marian

Above, my newest tattoo... I added this beautiful piece of ink on my break, the day Pippa left this world of ours.. At Woody's in Exhall...

I stayed the night in the Novotel at Birmingham airport.. Was a strange slightly unreal experience.. Masks, distancing.. Everyone looking weary, very surreal.

I was absolutely exhausted, slept, ate, slept...

The hotel Ibis I normally stay in, it was shut, and looking at it in the morning remembering photographs I have taken in reverse..

But me now home and I am happy here again at last, I didn't think I ever would be, or could be.. But I am.

I made a marshmallow pie, very sweet! Bit too much!!!

Bit like dinner this evening, I was planning on making chicken supreme, when that was underway I checked the minced beef I bought yesterday and it looked a bit iffy, so opened it.. Color was weird, but then I thought, I hadn't seen minced beef since ... I think maybe over a year ago!?! But not wishing to risk it or waste it, I made a Bolognese at the same time.

I ate some chicken, wrapped up two more portions of that, and have made up two of the Bolognese.. Three meals in the freezer one in the refrigerator!

And a visit to the garden centre on Monday! Good to be home.. I bought a hardy looking little shrub, the name of which I don't remember, and a Vicks vapour plant!! Who'd have known that! Smells lovely! Both seem like they should manage drought.. We'll see I guess. I can't believe the plants I have, have survived so well, over four months!! Although there has been intermittent rain, and the overnight moisture we get.. It's been enough.

This week, AC ordered for my bedroom.. And a new bed, an ottoman bed, really need the storage this will facilitate. New Spanish SIM card, new special padron ordered.. Ant traps and mosquito pots all in place!

Okay, caught up? Been to the bar for coffee with friends in the mornings, I've been down to La Cala market, and the Coín car boot sale!

I've met with friends for coffee and seen so many people I haven't seen for far too long..

Now I'm caught up?

TTFM
Marian

July 20, 2020

Such a beautiful morning this morning, when I walked down to the store to collect the newspaper, a beautiful breeze.

It felt like the kind of day one should be going on an adventure...

All of above written a couple of days ago..

And now my world has changed yet again..

Ever changing.. I am at my limit now of change, of loss, of grief.. I can't take much more..

My Pippa, our Pippa..
She didn't wake up this morning..

And I can't bear it..

I know I had to say goodbye nearly two years ago.. Without even looking I know it was August 6th 2018.

Now today I have to say goodbye again..
When she had a stroke nearly two weeks ago, and I prayed for Franco to bring her home..

Maybe he has.. maybe it's just her time..

I had a song stuck in my head all yesterday afternoon until this morning.. round and round it's been going even through my dreams..

The song Welcome Home.. I'll get it here now..

It's a different version to the Peter's and Lee.. and one I prefer.. please don't judge!

Pippa is home now.

One more night.. at work.
I want to be home too.

Oh I added to a collection today, maybe tomorrow I'll explain.

TTFN
Marian


Be strong enough to let go and patient enough to wait for what you deserve

Unknown

Read something like this this morning..

A champion is afraid of losing, everyone
else is afraid of winning..

I wonder if I am afraid of being happy again.. I mean.. what if?

Just a thought, I self destruct things in my life, I put barriers where there should be none, I go out of my way to find fault; I don't feel sometimes that I have a right to be happy, not now.

Still lost as to who I am now, that's the thing, so many things to everyone else, as we all are, but who am I to me.

Below a photograph from this morning.. again, still my birthday.

Mmm think I'll save this post for tomorrow.. I might brighten up later!

What do you make of it? This photograph, very strange; answers on a postcard please. Zoom in, it looks weirder still!

By the by.. I'll tell you tomorrow, if I don't forget.


Song

Now it's July 18th.. I had a good day, really, two cards, one from the family here, and one from the lady who came in to give me my two hours break, so sweet of her.

I saw my boys and their families.. albeit videocall.. but it was absolutely wonderful.

And now it's another day, and a few days left and I can go home.


TTFN
Marian

Caught, photographically speaking, this bee yesterday morning.. on the buddleia.. it's just coming into bloom, and later the cardinal butterfly was all over it.. the buddleia, not the bee! That would just be weird!!

Lols having trouble typing this morning, have been far too headachy recently.. felt very odd yesterday evening.. just very tired now, six weeks yesterday at this placement, long days.. and not sleeping well at all now..

You know, I'm glad we can't see the future.. the wonderful that happens unexpectedly.. is wonderful, but bad things would break us...

Just saying...

It's my birthday today.. I love my birthdays, always have, and I guess always will now.. I'm like a kid, I get so excited the days, (weeks), before, then can sometimes, usually, fall with a bang when .. when I don't know what.. Still waiting for my dad to turn up probably.. which would totally freak me out, him having died 50 years ago now.

So I'm just left waiting..

And on this note, sounds like I've fallen already, which is bad for not even nine in the morning..

It's a beautiful day; it is.

Wish you all could join me today, massive street party! How cool that would be, how diverse how many languages, how many amazing people.. thank you for travelling with me, very very much.. all part of each others stories..

TTFN
Marian

Mmm began this post a few days ago, prepped the song and a bit about a bike.. and the poem..

Today I am post migraine, the migraines of nowadays luckily not like they were, strange visual effects though just the same..

And today writing is proving difficult..
July 12th..

Okay, been out driving in the fairly nice weather.. last evening a drive to one of the centres of England! Meriden a village in the borough of Solihull! Who knew I was so near to Solihull!

Seems the town is only one of many with claims to be the centre of these green and pleasant lands.. but the name Meriden, so like Meridian.. must be for a very good reason!?!

Even Aylesbury when living there seems to want in on that action!

A bike the other morning on the path.. mm so this was days ago.. a man came flying along the path nearly taking me out in the process.. what's wrong with the wide road next to him? Who knows? Maybe a shout of warning would have been nice!

And this Android 10 has completely broken my phone now.. and I am going to get cross!! Lols! Very cross, very soon!

The evening before was a nature evening, beginning with a female pheasant with six babies!! So cute! First time in my life I have seen baby pheasants!

Followed closely by a small rabbit and a weasel! Lols.. No! Obviously not litteraly followed by! That would just be weird and very.. Riverbank stories world!

I mean over the next five minutes of driving though!

And finishing up with a green field.. nothing plowed or just seeded..

Standing by their hundreds, black birds.. standing all facing the one direction, very very spooky!

Very Hitchcock!

Enough now, phone driving me bananas!

Lauv and  Ellie Goulding Slow Grenade

TTFN
Marian


Those of you who travel with me, and have done for many years now, know maybe? That I republish a poem here, every so many years.. I guess when it pops into my head, just checked back and found I last did this December 2018.. so not long ago.. Heart of Stone.. it's called..

Not sure why I think of it as I do..

I have two of my albums flicking through on the TV in here..

I look now and again and see wonderful memories from New York two years ago and Naples last November..

Now and again I see a photograph I took of a random banana under a random shrub somewhere.. in the New York album..

It always makes me smile, remembering the banana incident, back in Westbury Sub Mendip! A couple of years ago now...

I guess if you put banana in the search up there, top left-hand corner you might find said incident! Making you work today eh!!

Tesco has delivered today already, thank you very much!

And I await a collection of a box to wing it's way to me back home; it'll be there ahead of me of course.. but only by ten days or so! It'll take about four or five days to get there.

Out driving the last couple of evenings, really seeing a difference now in traffic volume, lots more cars, pub carparks full, people spilling out into beer gardens..

Would put another James Blunt song here, but...

TTFN
Marian


I understand now that I’m not a mess but a deeply feeling person in a messy world. I explain that now, when someone asks me why I cry so often, I say, ‘For the same reason I laugh so often-because I’m paying attention. “‘ – Glennon Doyle Melton

Got out today, lols I mean for a walk and a wander.. lovely weather and took a walk!

It was nice to be walking, lovely being out in the countryside, bees buzzing, flowers moving in the breeze.. a track to walk beside a small river..

(Not going to say where it isn't, ya'all know where I mean by now?)

James Blunt Monsters

There's a great many things hard to fathom in darkness that set themselves straight in the light of day.
Quote from 'Once upon a river' by Diane Setterfield

I know I'm not, by far, the only person who lives in the past sometimes..

Not all day or all night, not even every day but sometimes, just snippets, when I'm doing something or even reading or watching the TV.. and it's like a flicker book.. I'm back somewhere, and I can see and feel it all.. like it was yesterday.

The thoughts that pop up in this manner are wonderful memories, happy days when the world was the right way up.. and then the ache in the heart comes.. it feels like a real pain.. and my chest tightens and I breathe so shallow.. as I realize once more it's not then.. it's now.. and a memory just surfaced was maybe five or ten years past.. and I'm shattered and my heart is bleeding, again.

I wonder if this happens more and more, not less and less.. I mean I do have more time behind me than I can ever have in front..

Time to make the very best of what's ahead so when I look back at this time.. there'll be good flicker pictures now too.. I'm trying, sometimes it doesn't work.


This post came today courtesy of Resolven market.

As I sat here with my first coffee of the day, reading my book, and I was transported to the Saturday market at Resolven.. thrown back into time, without leaving my seat!

TTFN
Marian

Change can be beautiful when we are brave enough to evolve with it, and change can be brutal when we fearfully resist.
Bryant McGill

Posted and editing for a song which just came up on my phone..

Thank you James Blunt perfect song for today..

Just about to start a new book.. Finished the last yesterday.. it was so good and I needed a bit of a gap before a new one.. to clear it through.. lol defrag! Lols old term now already.. where did old tech go..

Anyways! It's called Once Upon a River, by Diane Setterfield; I read about it, liked what I read and bought it.

Only on the bit at the beginning.. not reached part 1 yet.. but these opening lines sound wonderful!

Along the borders of this world lie others.

There are places you can cross.

This is one such place.

Doesn't it! 

And so I begin..

Okay! Later then..

Today, after my usual four hours sleep!! Something woke me with a jolt I actually woke scared!

Took ages to get back to sleep and everything was keeping me from doing so.

It's another gray day, walked to the shop in a light drizzle without my coat on.. it's not cold at all.

And well, that's it! No thoughts for today! They're all asleep still, being so busy during the night!

Let me drag a photograph here though, I'll see what grabs me ... Bare with amigos!

My Pippa.. two days ago.. She's 14 now, and now I'll post this and get the hell out of my blog.

Did I mention I've started on a new book? It's called 'I know You Will Find Me' by David Harris Wilson..

When I started reading it I couldn't believe the coincidence that the main character was in Coventry, and a fifteen minutes drive from where I am!! He named the area and street..

Then, not giving anything away.. oh well, I guess I would be.. There are much bigger coincidences! Absolutely crazy! It was published in January 2014.. and could have been written for today!

A really good book if you're looking for something right now!

By the by, I downloaded it some time ago.. like last year.. with no inkling of the times we're having now..

Feel like I have been here an eternity.. not this placement, but being here since March.. my right eye is better, nearly completely, just a bit of eyelid still swollen; but both are tired now.. I am going to have one long duvet week when I get home.. even if it's too warm for my duvet! I shall be like a bug in a cocoon.

I've bought random items over the last four months also, they're boxed up and going to be flying home before me next week!

Random song again for you.. Chris Isaak Wicked Game

Need to sauce a poem before I post don't I!

TTFN
Marian

& then I met you,
& slowly
but all at once my
whole world began to
change.
rm broderick

I wish I could listen to myself occasionally.. but I guess, do any of us take our own advice? Or even not advice as such but just good thoughts?

Like last night, it was late I was shattered.. desperate for sleep and the land of dreams..

I fell asleep yes.. then bam! Maybe only twenty minutes later awake, a noise maybe or a sense of a noise.. I thought I'd go back to sleep and before I knew it.. it was well gone 1am.. and no sign of that dream land...

I began with my 'taking myself somewhere beautiful' in my mind, shifted to another place I also love.. then I was sorting stuff out in my house, moving stuff, boxing stuff and clearing stuff! All in my mind.. Should have written this down, just to get it out.. instead carried on thinking it! Which progressed to the Pipster and then an assortment of other worries I currently carry in my mind.

Talking this morning, helping I hoped, giving my thoughts and feelings and trying so much to help.. I wrote something I wish I could remember when I needed to.. need to..

I hope she doesn't mind me sharing, I have changed a few bits and missed out personal stuff..

"It's difficult to know what to do.. difficult for me to know what to say... I know if I were you I'd be doing the same..

He knows forever and eternity that you love him, that you gave your all from the very beginning.. it's our living that counts; all the years that have past us by when we didn't realize how very important they were..

Now is important of course, but he's thinking of yesteryear..

That's why he loves you, that's why you're connected..

Stop, go for a walk.. sit somewhere.. let peace enter your mind..

...whichever you decide to do, will feel wrong at some point, and whichever you decide to do will feel right also.

Because there is no wrong or right.. there is just trying to do the best we can.."

TTFN
Marian


I hope you find that place one day. Where the chaos inside is understood and your heart feels at home.
JMStorm

Where you lead by Carole King.. the theme song from Gilmore Girls.. watching it, the series, again.. for now anyways.. I used to love this song.. but it links me to a placement I was at when the words.. "... If you need me to be with you..." Were ones I followed to the word when Franco called me.. needing me to come home..

Now when I watch this I have to skip the intro theme..

I used to watch it first thing in the morning, at work, as the sun came up and through into the placements kitchen.. and I used to get up and dance my way through it!! Lols..

Yep, I know... I'm funny like this!

My eye, was again this morning.. but I feel a subtle change now.. just very very slightly, so fingers crossed eh!

Weekend again! TGIF!!

Oh poem!

TTFN
Marian

These are the days that must happen to you.
Walt Whitman

So the British heatwave is at its hottest today! It's humid and bit too closed in at work to be comfortable..

Can't get out for fresh air ..
I think tomorrow it's going to break, and I am looking forwards to a thunderstorm or three!

Finding it a bit difficult to type on my phone, have an eye infection that's beaten any eye infection I have every had! In every way! I can see the swelling under my eye when I look down, which is a bit disconcerting, and it's swollen up into my nose.. it looks like I've lost a fight!

I'm taking antibiotics which the local hospital prescribed, I Uber'ed them here from there! Thank you Uber!

So hopefully they will kick in soon, sure they're working undercover at the moment, doing whatever pencillin does.. and hoping soon I will feel and see the getting better bit soon!

Okay, this is too much of a struggle.

TTFN
Marian

My favourite part is where you walked into my life. You didn't know me, yet something told you to walk a little more.
JMStorm

Beautiful weather again this week, very warm, the birds are enjoying the garden, especially the blackbirds.. took a photograph but no good without my good camera from the distance I was away.

There were a line of blackbird's standing backs to the sun.. wings splayed out.. orange beaks open..  litteraly sunbathing.. looked so cute!

Watching Death in Paradise.. still, series who knows what by now I am on.. man just said "Fridays I would be eating my tea and watching Crackerjack!" I automatically shouted at the TV.. "Crackerjack!"

Five full weeks of work completed now, four to go...

So over half way!

Although being thirteen weeks of work in total by the time I leave; I'm doing alright..

Tired, but alright..

Today I have both a song and a poem..

Such a beautiful song..

Marcus Mumford - Lay your head on me..

TTFN
Marian

Just kiss me in the rain,
So I'll know you are not one of them.
Those who run for shelter.
JMStorm

I am never going to finish this book if I keep stopping to tell you about it am I!

And this bit I read last evening; roughly,  about in this life we do some things we've chosen to do, that alter our destinies, but when it's all over, we have taken whatever has come at us..

Yesterday, chatting, over a worry, I said, worrying can't change it, and we'll have waisted now worrying about it.. we lose, waste, so much time worrying about life instead of living every single moment of it like it's our last.. because it can be.

I won't stop worrying, I can't, I was born worrying, my mom was definitely stressed while carrying me, if that has anything to do with it, I don't know.. I know nothing!

We can only decide certain things.. what to eat, where to go.. well, again soon, for all of us after this time we're all in together.. all reacting to differently, because we all feel differently.

Monday morning, it's a beautiful day.. temperatures will reach 30° by Wednesday here in Blighty!

I have four weeks to go..
I shouldn't be counting down, because life's too short.

TTFN
Marian

Firstly, happy Father's Day to these two boys of mine!

Where did the years go?

No seriously! Where?

Both my son's have babies now.. my youngest there, Tony, he became a dad on April 1st.

I am so proud of both of them, both amazing human beings..

I wish I could be with them both and their babes right now, today..

I am really enjoying this book still, Four Days with Hemingway's Ghost, by Tom Winton, the story is taking me past places I too know, which means I can travel with it even more than I usually do with a book, always visualizing what I'm reading, this brings the reality in..

This paragraph is good, and something for all of us..

'He told me that no matter how great one's fears are, it does absolutely no good to worry about them because if things turn out for the worst, nothing can change that.  All the fretting in the world wouldn't help me.  And, on the other hand, if things did work out well, I would be a dammed fool to have made myself miserable for no reason.'

Although in retrospect, nothing will stop us worrying about the big stuff.. I know this.

There are a few things I wish I had brought with me in March for my two weeks placement, that's turned into over four months without.. My camera, my VR and maybe my laptop... Mm no scrub the latter.. it's just writing on here is hard work sometimes! Lols

I get notifications for songs.. they pop up here and now, now and again, this one below came up yesterday, it's just beautiful..

John Rose ~ Wait for Me...

It's Sunday now as I write, bit gloomy out, been like this over the last few days, but each day the sun has made its way out, and been able to get out for a drive each day.. which is good for the person I support and myself. Different scenery, and chatting the whole time.

I also had a break yesterday, walked up the road for twenty minutes, turned around and walked back!

No disrespect meant for where I am, and I'm unfamiliar with the area and don't have a clue of what's around me...

But.. miss the swans, and the country walks.. the familiar faces.. lols even miss the tourists!

TTFN
Marian

It's Friday, it's raining.. it's ten degrees cooler than last week..

And I have yet another eye infection.. it's only been a month since the last one.. and to be honest that corner is still is very tender .

This is my other eye.. my eye ball, eye socket? I don't know, whichever, began hurting yesterday, now it's worse, and swollen, hurts all around the eye already, up to my eyebrow and down my cheek..

Hurts to blink, hurts open and closed..
I wrote to my doctor's (lifeline), this morning.. she said just keep using the cream.. okie dokie! And warm water bathing.. okie dokie!

That's it!

TTFN
Marian

And sometimes she'll get sad and she'll share it with you
Not for you to cheer her up
Just be quiet and feel it with her
Because sometimes she needs to feel it to let it go
But she doesn't want to feel so alone
jmstorm