Everything is about chance isn't it, when it comes down to it... 

Mom and I atop a church in Oxford about 1987.

If anything was different about our parents, grandparents, even a different moment of conception by anyone at any time those ancestors of ours.. hahaha sorry! But it's true.. isn't it.. 

Therefore we are all here by chance.. So grab those chances that come to you, they are meant for you to grab! 

Ashridge Forest about 1990

I, in this weird head of mine sometimes even wonder how my day would have been had I taken a different turn on the road, or crossed the road somewhere different.. 

Everything makes for happenings.

Yes maybe in an extra strange mind just now, spent nearly six hours going through my old photographs, which also meant going through my mom's photos! 

Yep, definitely still a hippy chick.. age 13

The majority in plastic, four photos to a page, some had two to four in and then the packets..

I have now filled the plastic sleeves with up to five or six in each, thrown away a whole bag full of photos, kept important ones.. so have hundreds.. maybe a thousand so far? At least, will have a better idea tomorrow when I finish the job! 

About 1987

Spending all that time doing this I look around and nothing to show for it! But, I have meant to sort them out for a long time, so I should be happy with that! 

This dress, a cousin bought it over from the states, it was my aunt Gloria's, I tried it on.. fitted beautifully.. 

Then he took it back home.. 

I look like I would have back in the times of wild wild West!

And lastly, don't normally put many of me, so way too many today.. 

These two were taken about 1999 I think.. from the gardens in Mijas, overlook the Fuengirola coastline.

M.

New moon

January 21, 2023: Closest New Moon Since the Middle Ages

By Graham Jones. Published 17-Jan-2023RSS

This Saturday's New Moon will be the closest New Moon to Earth in a period of 1337 years.

timeanddate's Moon phase visualization tool showing the New Moon for January 2023

The New Moon of January 2023 coincides with the point in the Moon’s orbit where it is closest to Earth.

©timeanddate

A Remarkably Close New Moon

According to our calculations, on January 21, 2023, the New Moon will be at its closest distance to Earth for the last 992 years.

The next time the New Moon is this close to Earth will be 345 years from now, making this the closest New Moon in 1337 years.

And also at this time the ZTF comet should be able to be seen all night.. 

Well I've just been on the terrace, and what with my chimney and neighbours either side all puffing out enough smoke to give Victorian London smog a run for it's money.. no chance.. the whole town is awash with smoke.. the sky has plenty of stars but the haze between them and I was pretty dense! 

Had a good day yesterday, town and lunch and home... I bought a halogen fire, for quick heat.. why I am putting up with being cold in 2023 I have no idea!! 

I couldn't carry it home, had a nice curry lunch and got a cab! It's been eighteen years here soon, and only caught a cab home twice now.. 

The first time must be over ten years ago, and cost 5€ so pulling up outside my house yesterday I was unsure what price it would be... It was 5€! 

No change in a minimum of ten years.. 

A small daffodil in my little garden area.. a miniature daff.. small but perfectly formed! 

Today I went out later in the afternoon, so with difficulty I stayed in all morning.. my time for being out usually.. 

Was colder in the house than outside! 

Lit my burner when I got home, so house is nice and toasty.. 

I am still coughing well, and whatever is in my lungs is still rattling around and making the weirdest of noises.. worse laying down, but even sitting or walking.. 

I do feel much better though thankfully!

And tomorrow I think the market! Wrap up well and head out early! 

TTFN amigos!

M.

Well friends, I've been, correction am sick with a damn cough virus thing, not covid, tested for it.. and I'm glad of that, because this has made me too sick to move much out the bed for three solid days, day four I went out for air.. 8am for half an hour, came home and spent rest of the day not moving.. 

Day five, Saturday? I walked into town but came home and slept for two hours.. 

Yesterday? Didn't go out just stayed sick.. 

And now I am out, standing by my car for air and collecting a colleague who feels mostly the same as me! 

This is, must be the worse a cough has ever in my life made me feel, so why I am eternally thankful it's not covid, my lungs can't take this attack as it is.

I got cough meds from farmacia.. I think it's helped, not sure.. and drinking lemon honey and ginger, chucking in some chilli flakes now also, just for the helluva it! 

Well, home from work, luckily a short day, coughing my way through, talking makes it so much worse! But me and silent don't walk hand in hand! 

Still, it's only a cough and will pass..

Other people are not so lucky, a friend today isn't good, but hopefully will be home and okay this evening! 

Someone else we know is in ICU.. 

And yesterday I made the mistake of checking on someone I have known since 1994, and working in Mercedes.. him and his wife lived out here, before me, in Alhaurín also as it happens. But moved back to the UK .. I found out he passed September 2022... So that's five friends passed last year. Two in their 50's three in their 80's.. but still...No time is really the right time. 

Also, I found randomly, someone I supported back in 2018 died in 2019... very young at only 72.. 

Okay amigos.. stay well! Or at least try.. trying is difficult I know... 

Oh just remembered another photograph, it's borrowed... One moment..

This is very very good.

M.

Well of course strange things always happen don't they? And I know not just to me.

Watching a bit of a horror movie just now and Tarot cards in the movie, Jessabelle it's called.. seen it before a while ago I guess.. anyway, I digress as usual.. 

Grabbed my cards and did a short reading, but a card fell out and it was the one above.. 

Bizarre, as it's the Chinese year of Rabbit which begins this year, isn't it? Of all the cards to fall out.. 

So I am guessing means something especially for me this year..

'It is even considered auspicious to start a family in 2023. Above all, though, the Year of the Rabbit is predicted to be a year of hope, largely because the rabbit is associated with peace, prosperity and longevity in Asia.'

Is a little of what I read.. well, maybe I won't be starting a family!!! But the rest reads well... 

I get info about comets and meteorites.. I love staring skywards at night.. 

This appeared today.. 

'Comet Hale-Bopp, whose long orbit brought it close to Earth during the heydey of ancient Athens and Sparta, and again in 1997 (the heyday of the Spice Girls and the Backstreet Boys). Hale-Bopp won’t visit the inner Solar System again for another 2,373 years.'

I remember so vividly looking out the back door of the house my son's and I lived in near the old Rex cinema in Berkhamsted.. and seeing the comet.. 

So much has happened since then yet still feels like yesterday...

After work on the 5th I brought two work friends home with me, we went into town, had a really great evening.. we walked along with the camels.. and got hit by high velocity sweets! Sparing with children and adults all trying to catch them! And got covered with confetti!

We had a curry, then a drink in a bar on the way home, changed into our comfies and had a few shots watching three movies...or two movies? One twice! 

We talked and laughed and talked some more.. said goodnight about half past two.. 

Got up late and carried on talking.. we then walked into town for lunch, or brunch? Back up to the house and I drove them back to the coast and their respective homes.. 

Made a really lovely change from the normal, and getting out to see the Three Kings.. was good. Very good.

M.

Other conversations we've had, my colleague and I, he asked me, if I could when would I like to be able to suddenly appear, unseen and unable to communicate with, or change anything..

My first thought, being me? Was to revisit someone I've loved and lost.. but that wouldn't help me when after a moment I'm back in the present would it..

So in retrospect I thought the dawn of time.. see how it really began, how we really began.

But then, do we really want the truth.. we have so many varied beliefs and all are the truth to us, and we live, mainly, happily within those truths.

For some the truth would be what we already thought we knew, but to others, total destruction.

And I don't think I want to see the future.

So given all possibilities, maybe just see what today holds, and look at it from a different perspective.

M.

 

I bought a hat! Needs pimping.. will do that now! 

From last night:
I wanted to write my Blog this evening on my laptop... seems the B  isnt working, so will have to add that from my phone!! Terrific!! She says sarcastically!! 

Ive pulled off the key pad for the B but nothing changed!! The pad beneath is fixed tightly and not moving a bit!

Today went to the warehouse for work, and chatting to my colleague on the  way and way back... interesting conversation, the sort I almost have on my own actually, especailly the life and death conversations...

For instance as I pulled out, suddenly and quickly from a side road we had een waiting for sometime, the thought crossed my mind, had we actually made the turn or had the truck struck us.. and if we hadn't would our minds still think we had... 

And reading a piece from an online item, and Sophia's ideas about death only the day before.. 

Okay can't do anymore on here... what with the key just skating around on the keyboard now as I've destroyed it in my 'fix it' or break it! mode!

Back to today! And the article.. 

Copying and pasting here.. hoping I am not infringing on anyone, anything!! 

©Sophia Dembling

Widow's Walk

GRIEF

Grief and the Passage of Time

Personal Perspective: Time brings healing, but also heartbreak.

Posted December 29, 2022 Reviewed by Tyler Woods

KEY POINTS 

• In grief, we must come to terms with leaving our loved ones behind in time.

• The passage of time is necessary for healing, but at the same time can be painful.

• Some physicists suggest that time is an illusion -a controversial but soothing theory.

The power of time has its limits

Admittedly, this is still cold comfort to me. I wish Tom were here, next to me, passing the time with me, aging alongside me, moving into the future with me. But whatever we be- lieve about time, two facts are indisputable: One is that our loved ones are no more or less gone today than they were the day they died. And the other is that no matter how much time passes, we will not forget them. Days, weeks, months, years, decades, can elapse, and the person we loved and lost will remain in our hearts, no closer or farther away than they were the moment they drew their last breath. Our memories, love, and connection did not die with them. Those are within us and will be for as long as we live. No length of time can erase our loved ones from our hearts; time doesn't have that power.

The distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion."

In physics, there is a theory called the "block universe," which posits that time is merely a construction mankind created to make order of our universe and that, in reality, past, present, and future all exist simultaneously. Some physicists vehemently dispute this the- ory, but that it not my battle to wage. I don't pretend to understand the physics behind it -that's way above my pay grade and intellectual capacity-but it is a soothing thought, isn't it? Perhaps we are not moving away from each other in time but living together in this block universe, simply out of sight of each other.

A piece of missed out and can't find it now.. but hope it still makes sense.

M

December 31st 2022

Walking into town this morning.. 6° and still dark.. I was freezing walking..

This morning's view from Bar Cruz.. the temperature didn't change in the hour I was there, which lead to my morning coffee being stronger than normal and accompanied by Pacheran.. for purely warming properties..
 

It did the trick! Warming from the inside out!

This afternoon I had a walk around the block... Well, several blocks.. and as I came past this telegraph pole I thought I'd take a photograph again... 

Hilarious.. it's not even on the ground.. just tied to a low level piece of concrete! With two metal ties of course! 

And this little chap came home with me from town earlier.. Because? Just because.. 

My last Blog of 2022.. always moving forward.. even if I take one or two, or several steps back.. forward is the only direction it's guaranteed we are going.

There is no pause, or reruns, or back to the beginnings.. we have one direction and this we must go, whether we like it or not.. 

We can choose only so much in the directions we take.. 

And we don't have any idea if the direction is right or wrong.. 

Bit like a conveyor belt.. we get dropped on it at birth.. there are on and offs, lefts and rights, (wrongs and rights), but it keeps going, none of us knowing the drop off zone which is ours.. just keeps rolling and roll with it we must.

I strangely feel quite positive as this year ends.. 

I haven't visited urgencia for four weeks! That's a bonus, having done so at least 12 times this year, plus other doctors/hospitals.. 

So maybe the kidney stones or Bosniak cysts have calmed down? Or the permanent infection I have, is just settled in now and this body is used to it... 

I am ending only with, other stuff I found out about and tennis elbow! I laugh loudly to myself! Really! Tennis elbow? Me?? 

Happy New Year my friends who travel this road with me...  Feliz año nuevo... Good health, prosperity and happiness for us all... Onwards always.

M.

Was an excellent date... being a numerophile! on Wednesday, 21.12.2022 = 3.. my birth number!! 

And on that day went to a shopping centre with friends, they've been calling in Nostram and I'd never heard of it.. thought it was somewhere new.. but it's one of the oldest and we used to go all the time, to the Bauhous there or the El Corte discont store.. 

Was good to be back!

This morning I just wrote to a friend who said let's go dancing when you arrive tonight.. as it's 11pm.. in the UK.. 

I said "I wish...maybe not after ten hours in work.. Used to go to Dunstable's Cinderellas or Watford's Paradise Lost, dance till 3 then drive home sleep and be in work for 8am!! Three hours sleep was enough then.. paying for it now.. 

Didn't know I was using time I would need now, then."

And now, thinking about that, am I doing the same now.. not in dancing but definitely wearing myself out.

It's not just me, so many friends of mine all saying the same thing, just tired now, or feeling done in.. and they're younger than me..

I guess there was a cut-off point we didn't know about.. until it cuts off!

M.

Good ten kilómetros walk yesterday afternoon... Under three hours... Sounds like a long time, but obviously I stopped way too many times..

I stopped for goats.. I stopped for dozens of motorbikes.. and a few cyclists...

I stopped to take photographs also, of course 

Trying not to repeat the many I have taken up there before.. 

Very difficult.. 

These hollyoak acorns were burnt in the fire from the summer... 

There was a lot of charred material on the road and undergrowth... 

Lots of sands from the sandstorms also

Coming down the sun was setting behind the mountain.. beautiful..

The sea seen around the Malaga port area

And a beautiful olive fallen from the tree..

Today, this morning I went to the market, was a lovely sunny day and good to be out.. after helping out a neighbor I have had to catch up with the two Christmas movies I always watch.. Love Actually and It's a Wonderful Life.. habits are strange aren't they? Meant to be broken too maybe.

Both movies are heart warming, but my mood now gone from okay to way down low... 

But it is what it is, isn't it.. 

I have to watch DVDs downstairs.. bit uncomfortable now I've moved the sofabed and dining table around.. 

Must have done it this year, because last year I had the sofa here when it was New Years.. 

I haven't been totally focused on either movies.. and have grazed my way through some snacks and an early dinner.. my last cannaloni, need to make some more soon.

Yesterday I planted some seeds and babies from a plant I have that keeps on having them!

Seeds were just thrown and probably will never come to anything, but this damp weather will feed their needs hopefully.

And I think lighting the fire might be a good idea right now... 

M.

 

 

Starting today with a song The Waterboys Lonesome Old Wind

I have an in-house (car) DJ and he, my colleague, picks at random a new CD most weeks..

The other day one just fell out, again, randomly and I'd never heard it before, or if I had it had been a long time..

I checked a track yesterday and found it was The Waterboys.. So Franco's CD.

'How Long Will I Love You' was one of Franco's favourite songs, and one I chose for his funeral..

I hope you listen to the link above, I never know if you listen to my random pieces.. 

I love this song now, and I think should definately be added to my playlist!

The drive down as far as I am now, on my way to work and picking up colleague.. was raining in Alhaurín but not once around the mountain, but all in black and white... No color yet.. Just music.

Yesterday at work was the busiest! Quiet until my break, then just as I started a zoom call for a dear lost friend of mine... After his funeral, it was beautiful, people talking about him.. 

But I was unable to attend the whole the service.. sadly..

Then it was full on until 5!!! Incredible, I got home, did what I had to then hit my bed by half nine... Knocked out!

M.

12.12.2022

Have to write a quick note today.. being a numbers freak and today's date equalling 3! My birth number so should have been an outstanding day for me! 

I did get my chimney swept, I did get four bags of wood and two butano gas bottles.. 

I did walk a long walk and have coffee in town.. 

That was my day... after a bad night's sleep and awake far too early.. 

I'm tired now, and just feeling like I'm missing.. not that I'm missing.. but I am just missing, missing something I'll never have? Or think I'm missing something.. 

Tomorrow's another day eh.

M.

No recent photograph, an old one from the terrace a while ago now; it's been raining here, the rain in Spain mainly falling... Everywhere!

Tough journey to work Friday morning especially, double speed wipers no help at all, and idiots behind still driving their usual speed!

Today a bit of hydroplaning surprised me! But was just a nano second, thankfully!!

You know sometimes my head is so full of words, to say, to write, then now.. I know I want to write but words fail me.. 

If I wrote truly what is in my mind not sure people could handle it, I know I can't, and I know, those of you who have travelled down my path with me have taken some blows along the way.. 

Things should be better but I seem to take more steps back than I do going forward.

I wonder if I should just turn around and go back! 

Pick up my pieces again and try a different road, another road less traveled, another path, maybe one free of stones and briar, an easier road.

Always be a little kinder than is necessary.. this quote is one I think I am using daily, especially at work, especially these days... 

M.

There are many quotes sayings poems stories written on Facebook, day and night, and probably, annoyingly I share way too many..

But this one above.. really holds in my head.

This has to be one of the best, short simple.. (like me! Ha!!).

No seriously, how often we don't say what we should and say way too much that we shouldn't..

I think if I were to have a headstone at all anywhere, this is what I want on mine.

Really not in the mind to write more, but if I don't post this now I might forget.

Above views of Sierra Gorda from both sides.. above from my terrace looking towards Zalea and the lakes behind.. and the lower image Sierra Gorda in the foreground with Sierra de Mijas behind.. and in amongst those white buildings, mí casa.

M.

Yesterday was time for colacoa... And think today my opened toed furry slippers will hit the shoe cupboard and out will come the furry boots!

This morning I let the alarm pass and after tea in bed and a bit of a series I got up, opened the persiana in the living room to this outstanding vista.. I ran up to the terrace to take this photograph.. 

To find my neighbor already appreciating this ..

We're so lucky in so many ways.. it's views like this... And so many others in this beautiful part of the world I am so lucky to live in..

I know wherever you are, we are, in this world, we have these amazing sights.. even in closed in cities.. we look around and up and see amazing horizons around us.

Yesterday helping with painting a bathroom, out a ways from Alhaurín, surrounded by mountains, the sound of trees, a dog barking, the odd vehicle or bike.. 

Then the sound of bells through the windows, goats on the mountainside, bleating and chiming, their dogs playing their own chasing game amongst the herd.. 

Although there's much we wish would catch up with the rest of the world here, especially in Andalucia, I miss even what was here twenty years ago.. goats on the roads around here every week, the knife sharpening man on his bicycle playing on his pan flute, every week on our street along with others.. bread, fish, meat, clothes! 

And yesterday, brought me back to the real Spain.. could have sat back, in the lowering sun, glass of red, some small food, maybe not even music.. just listen to the world around me.. 

Asked what I want the other day.. It's hard to put into words.. and maybe this sounds boring but it's not.. it's just the basis, just the bottom line of it..

Wish I knew what each day would bring.. not the fine details as such but the big picture... The main parts that wouldn't change, the important parts.. 

It would still leave all the mystery of each day.. that's what I want.. that's all I want.

M.

I feel like one of the angels from City of angels movie.. standing watching the sun rise.. it's amazing, feel so lucky, despite stuff .. it is truly magical..

I am actually waiting for a hospital appointment, as per the norm way too early.. but had to drive a 45 minutes drive.. somehow it didn't take that long.. don't judge!

I've drunk nearly two litres of water.. 

Drive down felt sick and in agony for having done so. Think it's a waste of time.. but the sunrise.. if nothing else from this, this sunrise is definitely not a waste of time..

M.

Worse day of my life..

Today, this day, this date.. does not get better.

It truly is the worse day of my life.. To be told by the man who is your world that his days are numbered .. that memory that feeling, can't be erased.

Maybe it should, or could? lesson in severity. But so far every year now I relive it. 

I still have the awful thoughts I had on that day.

I sit here now, where I scattered Franco..  the sun still shines, the earth still turns and I wonder 'how dare it.'

M.

 

Friday morning picking up a colleague.. beautiful view of the low cloud cover over the Sierra de Mijas.. 

Looked better from further down the road but obviously couldn't take a photograph..

These two photographs are, very poor standard! And the cross light in the one above makes no sense, no sun coming in, the light emanates from the ceiling anyway, not the door way.. 

Anyways! My over active imagination seeing weird stuff! 

These are of my new lights! LED lights, they start down in the dining room and come up through the stairwell and ran out exactly on the wall above the living room door! As though perfectly measured! 

They look great! 

Easily pleased really aren't I! 

Had a good weekend, very good actually.

Saturday coffee in town, lunch in Benalmádena pueblo, Saturday evening down to La Cala and a live band which was really good.. at a great venue.. home about midnight before I turned back into my comfies outfit! 

Sunday, yesterday, coffee in the morning, lunch at a friend's with a lovely group of chicas, another coffee out and home..

Lights up and working, beautiful weather and wonderful conversations..

El fin de semana.. muy bueno..

Now another week, off today also, when I refilled my meds box I laughed to myself wondering what my world will be like by the last days meds in the box.. 

Who knows? No one knows.. least of all me.

It's a bad week, a sad week of a memory the 10th being the lowest point, day, of my entire life.

Yet I keep breathing and yes, laughing and hoping.. 

M.

Song today... Just heard it on TV and now here it is for your pleasure or otherwise..

Marmalade Reflections of my life 

Doctors appointment today, feel like I am taking steps back not forward.. 

Maybe walking backwards is preferable to forward! 

It all seems very familiar! 

Sorry, not sure if I'm being sarcastic or just plain fed up with all..

But seriously, being told I have high cholesterol and triglycerides then a doctor saying nothing wrong.. and another doctor saying something on an x-ray but not listing on the paperwork!!!??? 

All getting a bit past a joke now.

So! Terrible looking accident on the carretera today near the McDonald's turn off at Calahonda, two fire engines, two cars against the barrier and a queue of cars all the way to at least La Cañada!

Halloween approaches, my favourite celebration, clothes ready, makeup ready! 

Bring it on! 

M.

Last week not a good week, Tuesday woke up with migraine like headache, was and wasn't a migraine.. I didn't have the normal hallucinations and light sensitivity.. 

But when I moved about I was sick.. at one point coming back to bed I misjudged my angle and smacked my forehead on the cupboard! I fell back onto the bed and swore... I mean, seriously, it hurt.. but not as much as the pain already there.. although in the other side! I found the next day I had cut my head.. by the blood!!

I got up about half four, but went back to bed about half eight having slept on the sofa some of the two hours anyway..

The pain I must add when I was sick was the worse pain imaginable.. although I keep saying that, so either my threshold is getting worse, or the pain?

I missed s day in work, and luckily had the Wednesday off because I still felt bad.. then Thursday back in work but felt terrible, so off to hospital I went, three hours, twenty minutes on a drip, pain meds and a shot of something else.. who knows! They didn't tell me! 

Bloods etc and an x-ray, at last!

And home..

Was away for the long weekend.. still feeling pretty crap, and the mystery meds made matters worse...

Then my boiler stopped igniting enough to get hot water! This was fixed today, thankfully and luckily so soon.. the boiler needed de scaling.. 

And wow, it's working amazing now!

This morning I saw a woman on the main road down at Calahonda.. frightening! She was roadside, a man on the path, other side of the barrier was either holding her back from running into us! the incoming traffic.. or pushing into it! In passing so suddenly it was impossible to know... And I only hope it turned out okay..

It was about in the same place our family lost a brother and it was so awful seeing it.. was like a movie, unreal not possible to be seeing it.. 

Too many weird things happening just now.. like an episode of Final Destination, but in reverse.. 

Okay, changing subject..

Yesterday and work, felt like two days in one, went to work, then the warehouse, then the store again.. 

Day before, Monday? I got to wash the car, last time I did dirty rain fell again, but not today.. not even a quick downpour.. it was about 27° today at warmest.. and Monday night at 7pm still 28°!

That's from end of May, now nearing end of October and still hot hot hot... Been a humid summer, and neverending.. a few downpours here and there.. a few sand storms and our three days of falling ash from our beautiful mountain as it burned.. 

Today I sorted out two bags of unworn clothes, bags.. good day today.

M.

Took this a few weeks ago.. the apartments of Cabopino reflected in the stem..

Before I begin, this is a heavy Blog! 

But in no way does it mean I am down or worrying.. just sometimes I need to unload.. but hell, after nearly 20 years of Blogging I guess you'd know that!

Just I've been thinking, which is either a very good thing or a very bad thing.. I'm speaking into my phone to do this blog so forgive errors.

It was an episode this morning of a series that I'm watching and a ghost said how he realised at a point in his life that he had been wasting his life on nothing.. things that didn't matter in the grand scheme of things.. or not taking as much notice of the things that really do matter in his life so he changed his ways.

And it reminded me of somebody that I love and care for very much, who said that on their deathbed the last thought would be of wasting time that could have been better spent elsewhere.

We can never go back, we can never get that time back to spend with someone we love, we can't change what was.

And I know my last five years have certainly not all been wasted, of course not, I have had some wonderful amazing times..  treasured moments I will keep with me always..  but now I feel different, now I feel I am biding my time... But why? What for?

Maybe we all have this thought now and again, and maybe it's because I'm here in Spain 20 years, in my house on my own, maybe missed opportunities and I would not have been on my own now.. still... Franco told me not to be alone, but I guess I have also fought that hard, because of him.

I reckon I'm probably two-thirds through my life that would make sense, I'm 63 and I reckon I can do until 93! So yeah I've got 30 years left and I don't want to be looking back and saying the last 30 years of my life have been wasted.

I think change is coming, change needs to come.

I know I need to grab it and I need to move on, and I need to stop re-posting rubbish on Facebook that makes me think too much, I need to just stop looking back, I need to think of today today.

And I need to think of how I want to look back at myself in 30 years time if I'm lucky.

A woman died in a car crash on the outskirts of Alhaurín recently, she was 42, a car was on the wrong side of the road, head on collision and it took her life.. we never know what's ahead do we, and none of us should waste a moment.

M.

Yesterday morning parked up to pick up colleague.. all the way down to work is wanted to take photographs of a scenery so surreal... A sea mist had made it way through every ravine and valley and made Islands of each mountain and hilltop.. 

But only when I parked could I take a photograph..

This strange pic above, oil in tomato.. just a quirky thing to see..

My bottle of Cruz Campo the other evening..

 And this shot above I took a bit longer ago, maybe a few weeks? If you soon in.. left of the sun beam.. busy below half way up.. a glow.. very strange.. it almost looks like a fire... And when the sun rose a little further it flickered out.. 

I can't work out what caused the illusion of light there... Well below any chance of natural light.. didn't look like reflection, took the photograph through an open car window.. 

Just very odd.

M.